Thank God~~~

First of all, thank God for everything I have now and what He had done for our church...

I am a youth from Padang Serai church, which is located at a small small town in Kedah, Malaysia. Before I left my church to a foreign city for further study, my church was a "weak" church. Most of the services were just attended by a few elderly members. Our faith were very weak, even an Elder said that we, ourselves, did not appreciate ourselves, how did the other churches help us. Although it was hurting, it is a fact. Honestly, I also looked down on my church because there are no youth there. Youth is the future of a church, is a new life of a church.

However, God know our weakness, He always know our needs, so He gave us a good choir leader, a sister that can gather all the members to form a choir. All the members are gathered together to serve God and at the same time, their faiths are improving. After 4 years absence in my church, I see and feel the new life of my church. We have Love Feast, we have choir, we have REU classes. Recently God leads a truthseeker to us. Thank God...

The youth is coming back to my church, including me...I try to find a job near to my hometown so that I can serve in my church, and thank God for giving me this opportunity. When I look back the past few years, I feel that God is looking after Padang Serai church, we did fall down in faith but God took us up...Many things you cannot explain why, but we do see the result of God's blessing on my church...

However, we still have a lot of improvement to make, so pray for us and may God continue blessing us...

New Page of my Life~~~

My company's logo

Its been a month I dint update my blog...Actually I have a lot of things to write, but one word is concluding my reason, "lazy"...:D

Okie dokie, this post is written to tell you all about my working life, a brand new page of my life...Before this, I would like to tell you all about my job...I am Manufacturing Engineer/Process Engineer/Product Engineer (whatever) so I need to understand and analyze the whole manufacturing process, starting from raw materials to shipment, everything I have to know...The product I am currently (will) handle is IFE (Integrated Flight Entertainment), which is a touch screen TV that you can see in front of your seat while you are in a flight...This things are all about electronic and I have no idea why they hire me as I am Mechanical Student...Anyway, it is an interesting job so far, since I am very very very fresh to this stuff of things...

As a fresh graduate, we always have no right to talk about our expected salary, even though the company asks us about your expected salary, you will not dare to write higher salary because we scare we will not get the job...Same as me...However, I did write RM2600 for my expected salary which I think is quite okay for me (my friend asked me to write higher because they will surely cut down your expected salary...)

My friend was right, they really cut down my salary until RM2200...Fortunately, I did ask the interviewer about the salary and he said that my expected salary is under the fresh graduate policy...therefore, I argued with HR people about this, and finally, they offer me RM2500...

Anyway, my first day at work was no bad, just a little bit of boring...My manager briefly explained the process to me (He is very nice person and he is also Padang Serai kia...haha...) Also, he introduced some senior engineers (teammates) to me and set a bunch of training for me to learn...

The first week was roughly the same, I have no PC until now, so I have to share PC with a technician...It is awkward to borrow PC from him since he also needs to use it...Hopefully tomorrow the stupid IT department will send a PC to my desk...I tried really hard to understand the flow and the process, but just I scare I will forget it since I just know briefly...As a result, I always offered help to my partner, but he cant give me since I am still new...Anyway, these days will come...:D

New life, new environment...I am still undergoing the adaption of working life and environment, hopefully everything will go fine, pray hard to GOD for His guidance...

PS: Working life = healthy life (sleep early, wake up early...XDXD)

2nd Week in Malaysia~~

It was 2 weeks since I came back from UK to Malaysia, and I feel I had come back for a long time...Maybe I had done lots of things within these 2 weeks, making me feel that way...Anyway, I havent told you all about the reason I made a sudden decision to come back to Malaysia...The story is like this:-

On the night of 9th September, I checked online about PSW, then I found out that I was not eligible to apply because I had no at least £800 in my bank account for the past 3 months...It was my mistake, I should prepare it earlier...Therefore, I had to go back to Malaysia to apply if I want to come back again to UK...

The reason I made quick decision because I was staying at my church member house, so I felt awkward to stay longer...Actually, all this I think is God's will...During YTTC, I prayed that if I cannot get a job after YTTC, I will straightly go back to Malaysia, but I did not do what I pray for...I still stay back here even I did not get a job...Therefore, God wants me to come back to Malaysia since it was the thing I pray for...

These 2 weeks time in Malaysia, I ate a lot and met lots of old old friends...I had 3 interviews and applied many jobs...I am still waiting for replies...I did these so that my father will stop forcing me to find a job...Anyway, I do whatever he asks me to do...

PS: My yougest brother birthday today...

知足常乐~~Satisfaction

Recently, I saw one of my old schoolmate posted a status on his facebook account, saying that if he can choose what to be in his next life (Buddhism = reincarnation), he wanted to be born in a riches family so that he can buy whatever he wants without considering the prices. I was so angry and disappointed on him. As a man, he should fight for it by himself instead of depending on his parents. I know him since childhood, and after 17 years old, we all separated different directions to pursue our ambitions. From what I know, he is the only child of his parents, so they indulge him, trying their best to satisfy their only son. I think this is the reason that he posted the status in Facebook.

As I know, his parents are not wealthy people but still, they buy many luxury (wasted, I should say) things for him, such as LV, Gucci and bla bla bla. He is a man, what for he pursues these kinds of material thing, although he is sissy guy. He should be responsible to his parents, give them money, or at least don't let them to spend much money on him. Anyway, this is all his business. His parents had done wrong on their child education.

I am so lucky that my parents trained us to be frugal. Maybe because I have 4 brothers, so they have to do that to cut down our family's expenses. In Bible, there are many verses talking about this thing. Meanwhile, Bible has taught us to be satisfaction to what we have now. Don't pursue something unneccassary to our Souls.

Anyway, I hope that he can wake up from his indulgence, stop wasting money on material thing but in more meaningful thing such as helping his family.

Father (Part 3)~~~

I shouldn't ask my parents for suggestion, because everytime end up with an arguement, since they don't really understand me especially my father...

I just finished my call with them and I was so sad and disappointed that my father still do not understand my needs and my thinking, although I had told them about my plan. If I go back to Malaysia, I plan to use 3 months times to serve God...However, I don't think this gotta work now because my father will force me to find a job...Why he has such small faith in God? He supposes to feel happy about me, but unfortunately, he won't let me do that...Maybe I just stay back in UK, escape from my father, is not a bad idea...I believe that God will guide me when I make the decision...

What should I do? What should I do? Am I confident to myself that I can survive in UK by doing part time?

Stay or Leave?

To be honest, I pray that God will show me His way to me, but now I am still confusing...How come I have such a small faith?

Today morning, I went to HAYS Recruitment Agency to ask them for helping me in Job Hunting, but end up, they told me that I have to have experience in that particular field...I am fresh graduate without experience, so they can't help me...Therefore, I went to the other recruitment agency and the answers were the same, until an agency called, MANPOWER (funny name...) told me that, I have to transfer my Student VISA to a VISA that allow me to work full time...I was just realised that I was so stupid, I should apply for PSW earlier, then I can get a job now...However, its all come into my mind, should I stay and apply for PSW or leave UK to Malaysia? Where can I stay in Birmingham while I am doing my PSW? My contract for my currently accommodation is expired on 8th Sept, which is next week...Oh gosh....what should I do?

I think I just pray and pray....worry doesnt help me at all...

YTTC 2010 in Sunderland~~~"Be Transformed"

For the past 3 weeks, I was away from Birmingham to Sunderland church to attend YTTC (Youth Theological Training Course)...The theme of this year is "Be Transformed"...It was fun and productive weeks and causing me wanted to join them again next year, but I am not sure whether I am able to join them or not...

First day, I went to Sunderland by train, costing me about £46.00 for the return tickets. I walked from the Sunderland Metro Station to Church alone...Fortunately I checked the map the day before I left Bham...It took me about 20 minutes and I was sweating after the walk (plus luggage and bag)...

I was welcomed by some people there and Anthony was the only who showed me my sleep "bed"...Then, I went to register at the reception room...After registration, I met Colin and had a little chat with him...I congratulated to him since he was engaged with Marian...:D

I went to the dining area and met up Johnny, the preacher to be, and I was so surprise to see the German youths that I know during the Germany trip...So happy to meet up in Sunderland...After a while, the London participants came in, together with 2 Taiwan participants, Yu Chen and Wei Jen...Happy to meet them too...

After the open ceremony, we had some fellowships and sharing...Then 11pm, bed time as usual...After the first day, everyday was almost the same...

Morning Prayer: 45 minutes, started from 7:30am

Breakfast: Bread and buns, with tea, milk, cereal, hams, cheese and etc

Classes: Genesis, Basic Doctrines, University Life, Literary Minister, Introduction to New Testament, Luke, Prepare to Perfect Partner, Basic Evangelism and Bible Study Guide

Lunch + Dinner: 1 hour per each, including duties...After lunch and dinner, still have classes to go...

Evening Prayer: 20-30 minutes for sermon (by Year 3 students) and the rest of time was praying for Holy Spirit...

ASF (assignments, self study, fellowship): 1 hour....

Hymn Practise: 45 minutes after lunch....

Activities: Sport day...2 hours on Sunday....

Sabbath Service: Hymnal Presentation....as usual...

Actually I was enjoying the life in YTTC here...The rules were not as strict as Theolo in Malaysia, but we did prayed a lot during 3 weeks...45 minutes + 30 minutes per day...I think Malaysia should think about it because prayer is the most effective to strengthen our spiritual life...

I was in Year 1 by the way, although I had finished my 3 years theolo in Malaysia. At first, I was wondering why I have to go to Year 1 again, but after this 3 weeks, I gained a lot of knowledge about bible that I never knew before...Thanks God for guiding me to YTTC this year....The University Life session was not really useful for me since I was graduated...

During the farewell, when the Year 3 presentation, it reminded me the last day of my theolo in Malaysia...Anyway, 3 years is not a short time...XD...

PS: Tomorrow I will go for an interview as a salesman...haiz...really dont know what to do with this job...Pray to God for his guidance...XD

Father (Part 2)~~

This afternoon, my father texted me and asked me to call my cousin that I rarely know, so that I can ask him to give me a favor in job hunting. He scolded me (maybe...) that I just sat at home, doing nothing. I was speechless and a little frustrated and angry plus stress because until now, my father don't really understand my situation here and he just judged me like he always did...

I am grown up people, and I am always independant, I don't want to depend on other people, I don't like the feelings that forcing cousins do somethings that "might" bring them unconvenient. My cousin is working in electronic company, which is not related to my degree, and the company is in Bangkok, which at the place I don't really like (No offence)...I have my own plan but now, he just broke into my plan and make me to follow his plan because I am his son. He never asked me what I really want to...This is my future, not yours...

My plan is spending one month time to serve God before I start working, but my father is forcing me to find a job immediately...How is my plan, then? Screwed up, because I have to obey him...

Every single text he sent to me is a pressure to me...Is like a pushing button...I had done what I need to do, but now, all I can do is waiting for replies...However, my father doesn't understand this, he said I was sitting at home, doing NOTHING...What? Am I so untrustable for you? Please, let me plan my future with my Heavenly Father...

I understand my father is out of good intention, but it had become one kind of pressure for me, which I cannot avoid or ignore...My father had done the same things to me while I was doing my UK Visa...That time, he dint understand that the agency needed time to approve my Visa, and he kept on calling me, scolding me, saying that I dont really follow up the progress...This made me stress until I din't know how to pray...fortunately, I have my Heavenly Father to comfort me by using the mouth of preacher...Thanks God...

This post is just a way for me to release my frustration and my stress...Pray for me if you are christian...

简单？不简单？天真？不天真？

正如实力派歌手黄小琥的最新唱片《简单，不简单》，人性也是如此，看是简单、单纯的人，不一定是简单与单纯。外表看似大方，背后正在打着如意算盘，外表看似和蔼可亲，里面却是憎恶无比，真是金玉其外，败絮其中。当然，如果你知道“其中”，你会觉得“其外”也是败坏的。

在我的四年离乡背井，到外地读书的日子里，我想在此向那些教过我人心的“可爱”的人说声谢谢，因为你们教我如何看看这世界。我承认，我看似简单，但不简单，因我学会了“以其人之道，还至其人之身。”他们也教会我，人要自私，因别人会找你便宜。真心换来的是伤害，与其如此，倒不如不付出？

我也学会了戴面具，但为何教我戴的人，往往就不会戴面具呢？你说你想要做自己，但却教我戴面具，不是很矛盾吗？可能因为我是主见的人吧，什么东西都要别人跟我做的一样，我真是差劲，但你也不是十全十美的吧，但是你不曾承认过你的弱点，因你认为“他/她”比我们更加了解你。我相信"soulmate"，但不可能你的soulmate所说的，全都是对的嘛，也不能因为你的soulmate不喜欢，你也跟着不喜欢吧。我现在已不所谓了，你喜欢怎样就怎样吧。

PS：我没有别的意思，如有雷同，纯属个人感觉

Summer 2010 in Birmingham~~~

Nigth View

Day view...

I moved to a new place, called Londonderry House in Birmingham City Centre...Goodbye Glendower Road...

Londonderry House is a flat and I live in 12th floor. The room is big, has private toilet with shower, all bills are included, but the internet connection is extremely slow....Imagine you used to have 10MB internet speed and now downgrade to 512Kps speed....Not used to it...However, I think it is kind of training, train my patience and slow down my life's speed, which I think its quite good...The outside window view is nice, I can see the sky clearly and also the night view of Birmingham since I live 12th floor...Its been a week I live here, I had met my flatmates, who are Chinese (China) students...The first night, I met some situation, which the Chinese lives the room in front of my room, broke his door because he can't open the door plus he was drunk...I asked him yesterday, and he told me he din't know what happen to the door...(=.=''')...Anyway, I think he is a nice guy....Hopefully...

Bro.John is back to Birmingham after a year research in Taiwan, and now we go to Leicester church every Saturday...Finally I had my company again...Thanks God...The weather is nice but hot, although it is just around 27'C, compare to Malaysia, its nothing...However, I felt hot to the weather....Sweating now...

I plan to go to Euro but I had registered to go for YTTC (Youth Theological Training Course) in Sunderland...I am not sure whether I want to go or not, because perhaps I get my job replies during the training course...I have no idea with it, but just pray to God that He can give me a job before August...Anymore, its all depend on His will...(pray for me ya...)

Here is a sad news:

I received a phone call from my youngest brother saying that my Uncle's wife was past away last Monday, the first day I moved in this room. I was not shocked or sad, because I knew this day will come, for all of us, her day was just came earlier...Actually I was told she was suffered liver cancer (not sure) and it was 3rd stage of cancer, so I knew her day was coming soon...When I am writing this, at the same time, I am recalling back the memory we shared in my life...I am now a little bit sad, thinking that I can't see her anymore, but life still goes on...Commemorate her sometimes, will help me to remember her exist and her care to me....I believe that you had rested in peace, my dear AH KIM (uncle's wife in Hokkein)...I will pray for your family especially AH KU (uncle from mother's side) although you are not Christian, but I believe God will comfort him...This is my 3rd sad news in a month time...I have nothing to complain because life is just a brief of candle...

PS: Melancholy+ING.....

2 sad news in a week...

REST IN PEACE

I just logged into facebook, and saw my friend's brother's status, saying that his friend was past away...I was so familiar with the name of the friend, I thought he was my ex-classmate during primary school...However, when my parents came back from Kulim, they told me he was my best best friend's brother...Unbelievable...

Actually I dont know why I still can smile out when I told my friend about this news, perhaps I wanted to balance my inner feeling toward my best best friend...I am not really close to the dead person, but what I am worrying is my best friend...I know that she loves her family very very much, more than anything, this news will make her very sad...I dont know what can I do for her other than send my consolation to her...I really dont know what can I do to console her...really...Ya, I just can pray for her, may God comfort her...

Life is just like a brief of candle...This phrase I learnt from a literature class in Form 2, and I totally agreed with it until now...I believe that my best friend is now crying non-stop and is comforted by my another best friend...Hope that she can be a strong girl...

Actually last week, I had already received a death news from my mother, telling me that my Malay neighbour, who lived just next to my house for 23 years, passed away...I always called him PAK CIK, which mean UNCLE in Malay...It was just few days after my brother's wedding...He came to our house for wedding dinner too, and he was still normal and healthy...He insisted to give my brother "angpao" (red pocket) even though MAK CIK (his wife) already gave it...However, MAK CIK said nevermind, since PAK CIK insisted to give it...I was so touching...

For so many years, he witnessed our grown up...He witnessed my brother's marriage...He had tolerated our noisiness for so many years without complaining...He had be nice to us for so many years without looking at our skins' colour...However, I just can say, rest in peace, PAK CIK....

What had happened since last post?

Hi, I am back to blogger again, been through a long long busy marathon that I cant even feel that I am now in Malaysia...Okay, since there were lots of things happened within one month time, I just briefly talk about it...

First of all, I did really bad in my final assignment, which is Dynamics and Control System, because I was lack of time to finish it (2 assignments to submit in 2 days, but I cant blame anyone because it is my fault...) However, I cant imagine that I get 81% for my essay...Well, I dont care whether the lecturer "give water (cantonese)" or not, I just happy because it helped me to pull up the average mark...Thanks God...After the final submissions, my coursemate and I went to have a movie called "Kiss Ass", which made me wanna really kick the producer's ass...Its boring and meaningless, and the actors and actresses are suck...After the movie, we went to Pizza Hut for "brunner" (breakfast + lunch + dinner)...Nice pizzas and I had a great bolognese there too...XDXD

After the busy week, I had the most busiest month...Final exams + Final year project...I was wrong, I should pay more attention on my revision, but its too late...FYP was killing me softly and slowly...I was busy modelling and analysing, but you know what, the software I needed to us is out of order, so I waste few weeks doing nothing...What the...

Just before I went back to Malaysia, I rushed and rushed, slept 3-4 hours for 3 days...However, I still cant finish the report...What to do, I needed to bring back to Malaysia and finish it...However, I was wrong again, it was my brother's wedding, so I was busy helping my family doing the preparation...I had no time to do the report, until all these dinner finished...I was just finished it and sent it to my friend who still in UK, and asked him to print it out and submit for me...Now, everything is over...hopefully...

Suppose, before I went back to Malaysia, I should be happy and counting the days, but the FYP made me worry more than happy...What to do, last last report liao what...haha...Hopefully I can get a 60++ for my FYP...

PS: Will go back on 21st June...2 weeks to go...

Marriage in Christ~~~

Yes...This post I would like to share about Marriage in Christ, which means both of the bride and groom are Christian...In my church, marriage in christ is strongly recommended by our preachers and other members...Last two days, I attended a service in Birmingham, and some members from Leicester Church are there too. After the service, Deacon's wife and I met at a kitchen and suddenly she asked:

Deacon's wife (DW): How old are you?

Me: 22 this year...

DW: Oh I see...Don't misunderstand me, I don't mean anything...

Me: (What???Misunderstanding what???) Okay....

DW: Well, I am the person in charge for Leicester's youth matchmaker so that the youth can marry in Christ...And because you are still studying, so I didn't introduce or match you with other sisters...

Me: (smile awkwardly and sweating...) Okay...

Well, from this conversation, you can know that marriage in christ is an important thing that a church must concern about...You should understand the situation at my churches in UK...I am not sure whether I had mentioned it before or not, but I tell you one more time...In UK, the youths are married at the average age of 23 or 24...Right after they have a stable job and income...The age above is the groom...Therefore, the deacon's wife was asking me my age so that she can do her job...Luckily, she doesn't know that I am going to graduate next month, because I don't want to marry so early...23 or 24? Don't be silly...

However, they have the reasons to do so, which the reason is the environment now a day...Lots of temptations out there especially western country like UK, the people are very open minded, so the churches scare the youth will be tempted and leave the church...Therefore they are encouraging the youth marry early...well, I agree at this point, but marry early also has the problem inside, which is less understanding, immaturity and so and so...Anyway, here are the benefits of marriage in Christ...

Benefits of Marriage in Christ:

1) Blessing from God

In True Jesus Church, if the couple is not our church members or haven't been baptised in our church, they are not allowed to have wedding in our church, which means they cannot get the blessing from God. Blessing from God is unique, special and different from the world's blessing. With this blessing, the couple will be blissful.

2) Same religion

If the couple have the same religion, they can go to church together and their faith will standfirm. When one of them is weak, the other one can help each other to stand up. They will not alone along the way to the heaven.

3) Save the next generation

Bible says that religion/faith is a heritage, which should be carried on to the next generation, because this heritance can save their souls.

Well, I believe there are some other benefits that I haven't mentioned...I want to marry in christ, just not that age...Anyway, I will just follow God's will, let God to decide my marriage, because I believe He will give me what He thinks is best for me...Amen...

PS: What do you think about married in Christ? Mind to share about it?

Talentime~~~

A few hours ago, I was impressed by a funny commercial in Malaysia, and I thought it was made in Malaysia, but unfortunately, it was Thailand...Anyway, I searched it on Youtube and found out there was a good director, who named Yasmin Ahmad...This woman died last year, and only that time, I heard her name...Therefore, I searched for her directed film, and one of them is Talentime...

Talentime was made in Malaysia (of course...) and the story is really interest...An Indian guy, who are deaf and dumb, falled in love with a Mix-blood Muslim girl...However, in Malaysia, if we marry a muslim, we are "forced" to be a muslim...As a result, most Chinese and Indian in Malaysia won't choose Malay as their wives or girlfriends...However, this Indian guy didnt mind of this matter, he kept on connecting with the muslim girl...After a while, his mother found out and scolded him...His sister was supported him...

From this film, I feel that Malaysians are pathetic...Falling in love with Malay/Muslim is same as betraying your religion...Because of this rule, we are always saying that married a muslim is betraying your own race...From this aspect, you can see that Malaysians are pathetic...I can only choose our own race or Indian or other races instead of Malay...It doesnt make sense at all...

Anyway, I dint mean that I falled in love with Malay or Muslim, but I strongly disagree that marriage = changing religion...Let's say, one day, I fall in love with Muslim girl, but I dont want to betray my God, so between the girl and God, for sure, I will choose God, but the problem is there...How about the girl?

PS: This is the fact...Unchangable fact...I repeat, I am not interest in Muslim girl...

Life = Uncertainties~~~

"I don't know about tomorrow, I just live day by the day"

Yes, we don't know the future, we can't even know what will be happened next second...Life is full with uncertainties...Only God knows these uncertainties...

Recently, I was told that my second brother is getting marry this coming June...When I heard it, I was surprised because now it is already April, how come they have enough time for the wedding's preparation? Well, I knew something was happened, and I knew what was happened...After confirmation with my mom, well, my guess was correct...Thats a fact that hard to accept but I knew this day will come...Anyway, I was confused whether I should go back or not, since I have plan in UK, which is job hunting...

After receiving few opinions from my friends, I think I should attend the wedding and come back to UK AGAIN after a few week...I changed my way of thinking that I treat this trip as a graduation holidays, so that I can easily accept the fact...Hilarious right?

"But I know who holds tomorrow, and I know who holds my hand"

Uncertainty is thing that happened at an unexpected time...As a christian, only I can do is praying to the Lord who "holds tomorrow"...He will guide me according to His will...

PS: I have to pray for my brother and his fiancee, hope their marriage can last forever...I am quite worrying them since they are not married in Christ...May God bless them from now till forever...

PPS: I had booked a round trip ticket back to Malaysia...See you all there, my hometown friends...

Heidelberg, Germany~~

Well, if you have my facebook, you probably knew that I went to Germany last week to attend the student convocation and spiritual convocation. For this week, I learnt about how to study bible...We were taught by the preacher and preacher-to-be from UK in theoretically, after that, they gave us some "housework" so that we can practically use the methods we had been taught...

Observation:
Read through a passage in the bible, observe the passage whether it is complete story or not, and then get as much story line as we can...

Analyse:
After observation, analyse the passage or versus by using Where, Who, When, Why, What and How.

Explanation:
Using bible versus to explain bible versus is the best explanation...

Application:
Applying examples or telling how to do so that people can learn the lessons in the passage and apply it into their lives...

On 28/03/2010, I didnt sleep for the night because the daylight saver (one hour set forward), I took a bus to the airport...It was a cold morning and the road is turning into silence mode...It was just 6.30am...I reached the airport about 9am, and I waited for Johnny (preacher-to-be) since we were travel buddy to Germany...

We took Lufthansa Airline to Frankfurt, Germany, and I found out, the aeroplane is very small, just like the MAS small plane travel from Penang to KLIA. Anyway, I cant complain much about it, although it was really small and spaceless. After an hour and a half, we reached Frankfurt airport at 1pm. Then we waited for a shuttle bus to Heidelberg for 2 hours.

Because it was sunday, the street was very quiet until I can hear the bird's singing...Johnny tried to call someone to pick us up to the church, but there were no one answer the phone, so Johnny decided to walk to church with luggage (burdens)...After 20 minutes walk, finally we reached church. It is an apartment, with 2 rooms and 1 dining room. It doesnt look like a church but in bible says that, when they are 2-3 persons get together and say "in the name of Lord Jesus we pray" Jesus will be there...The one who opened the door for us is Sis.Siglinde, who is Pr.Ko's wife and she is German...She speaks well chinese (impressive)...

After a few talks and introduction between us and other brothers and sisters, we had dinner together and prepared for the next day. At that night, I realised that I need to prepare a presentation (sermon) for the student convo and they arranged me on the next 2 days...1 sermon in 2 days...Fortunately, I remembered I wrote a sermon in my blog (Wall & Bridge) so I took it and elaborate it...

The next day, we woke up early in the morning, and Johnny took me to the city "street" in Heidelberg...Its located beside a river and surrounded by mountains and it is beautiful...You can see it in my facebook photo album...After that, Sis.Siglinde brought us to the uphill because there is hostel there where our convocations were hosted...From there, I can see the river and the city...

During the week there, I met a lot of members who live in Europe country such as Germany, Holand, Austria and Italy. They treated me very nice (of course, they are my bro and sis) and the food was very delicious (Taiwanese Beef Soup Noodles!!!). I was also scheduled to do some duties such as cleaning toilet and kitchen, washing plates and etc. Well, I am not complaining because they are actually giving me chances to get blessing...Then I found out, in Heidelberg, all the citizens have to catagerise the wastes and rubbishs and throw it into different bins...Impressive again, they are environmental protectors and we should learn from them...Therefore, I learnt what wastes are catagorise in biomass, plastic, papier (paper) and etc...Bones are not biomass, it was general rubbish, because its hard to dissolve bones...Interesting?

During the week, I saw many mix-blood children at the church, which I never see so many at the same time...They are cute...haha...

Anyway, my ticket to Germany is worth to its price...I gained a lot and knew a lot of friends...Hopefully I can go there some days in future if and only if I manage to find a job in UK...XDXDXD

PS: The effect of the week is I woke up automatically at 8am....haha...

Housemates Problems~~~

I am not sure whether my housemates will read it or not, but I just spit out what I feel these days since this is my blog...I can write whatever I want, right?

Talking about housemates problems, there are plenty of it can be told...Maybe I am a subjective person, so I have these problems...Well, judge yourselves, my friends....

I have 3 housemates and 2 of them are sharing food with me. Since we are sharing food, everything we bought for the dinner, we paid equally for the receipt. Since these food are shared, means we can only use it in the presence of the other two. However, they are not obey the rules, so I am also not to obey the rule too. Actually I don't mind them to take small amount of the food, I don't even bother about that, but one of my housemate started to haggle on me...

CASE 1:
Housemate: Err...Louis, can you please buy your own oil, since you always use the oil to fry food, and we are not really want to use the recycled oil...

Louis: Well...Okay...

CASE 2:
Housemate: Louis ar...Why you use so much oil to fry thing? (I used it to do Sweet and Sour Chicken, for sure I need to fry the chicken...)

Louis: (since he is so "appreciate" the oil, I won't cook this dishes anymore...)

CASE 3:
Housemate: Hey, our CNY stuffs totally up is £60...

Louis: How come...What thing had you bought? (looking at the receipt...)

Housemate: Seafood, pork-leg,....etc

Louis: Why you bought so many thing? We are just guests for the event, why you want to do so many things?

Housemate: I cook, not you cook...

From these cases, what do you think? I never bother about him for taking the shared veges or rices, I never bother about his girlfriend come to stay at our house for weeks (supplied with food...) But Oil? You haggle with me because of oil? What the world...I dint argue with him since we are housemate...

In case 3, I really speechless. When I asked him what he wanted to cook for the CNY event, he dint answer me. If he answered me one week or two days from the event, I can go to wet market to buy the ingredients in a low price, so that it won't cause us so much. He never discussed with us or think or ask about our budget...£20 per person is really expensive for a student...Some more, the output of the ingredients...failed, especially for the "cha siu" he made...Well, I had to show my support to him, so I ate it...

Maybe I was overreact to these matters because of my subjectivity as I always put a standard toward people around me, or I should say, expect other people to do as following to my standard...If they dont reach my standard, I might be angry or unhappy...Well, this personality is really annoying me, which I can't change it eventhough I hadn't try plenty of times...However, in case 1 and 2, I really can't accept that...

As a result, don't share too much things with your housemates, it will cause you lots of problems...Maybe just me...Judge yourselves...

PS: Drinking Carlsberg while writting this post...XDXD

First time met Minister~~~

Just now, I went to Birmingham Hilton Hotel to attend a conference with Dato Sri Mustapa Mohommad (Minister of International Trade and Industry)...Since the UNMO chairman in Birmingham asked me and my housemates to attend it, so we just went there to listen what the minister wanted to tell us (actually we went there for dinner, its FOC...XDXD) I was wondering why they will ask us (chinese) to go there because last year, they just asked Malay to attend the conference...However, when the minister started to talk, I knew the reason, which is to spread the concept of "1 Malaysia"...

Okay, when we reached the conference room, I was nervous since this was my first time to meet minister face to face...I shook his hand, and also his "leng" (penolong or kakitangan...whatever)...They were very nice to us, talking to us...bla bla bla...After a few minutes, more and more people came in the conference so they started the conference...

Here are the summary of what he told us in the conference:
1) Explanation about the condition of Malaysia's politic and the concept of 1 Malaysia
2) Emphasize that Anwar's case is not related to government
3) Asked us to go back to serve Malaysia after graduate

Then Q&A section, 3-4 peoples asked the minister some questions:
1) Education inbalance (Quota system & Bumiputera issues) in scholarship or SMK and SJK
Ans: "We need time to change it..." *sweat*

2) Economic in Malaysia
Ans: Agriculture is needed to improve in future...Koridor Utara...bla bla bla...

3) Education in Malaysia now a day (SJK and SK schools)
Ans:" Its hard to change this, you see the US need so many years to accept the black...bla bla bla..."

4) Kebebasan bersuara
Ans:" Don't really believe in those 'mosqitoes' suratkhabar...bla bla bla" not really answer this question...

Well, actually I wanted to talk about the education issues such as MARA scholarship, JPA and etc, because its really unfair for us non-bumiputera, but one of the students had helped me to ask, so I just listened what the minister said...However, this minister's answer was disappointed me, because he said this bumiputera issue need time to change...Well, how long? Since this is the very basic thing for the concept of 1 Malaysia..."Won't let the other races felt minimised..."

After 2 hours conference, my housemates and I had a little chat with Chris Tan, Senior Vice President of Korindor Utara...Since I am from Padang Serai, Kedah, so I had interest in this plan...Chris told us that the program offers us a help to find internship from the companies around Malaysia, which I think quite good for students who just graduated from University...Somemore, I got an interest in the Kulim Hi-Tech park, which is near my hometown...He told me I can get a job there since they need engineers...Well, these information are what I get from the conference...

Then we went to eat the FOC dinner, mostly seafood but not really taste good...XDXD...During the dinner, we also talked with Chris until we left the table...He shared his experience to us, which was quite interest...(I know he is now under government, so I just keep back on what he told us...)

Well, its not bad for the first time, the minister is quite impressive for me...However, what we talked in the conference, mostly it won't reach to the ears of Najib...Anyway, it won't change at the end, but I think we still need to tell them what we really think, whether they listen or not...Some more, we all are already at legalised age, we have the right to poll...XDXD...

PS: Bought lots of fruits recently, oranges, grapes, apple and etc...Grapes really cheap here...XDXD

Assignments Weeks~~

From the first day of CNY until now, I had past up 3 assignments...Well, because of my laziness, I lacked of time to do it, I just used 2 days to complete each assignment...Therefore, now I am totally worrying the results that I might get for these assignments...

Since I got a very very low marks (all results were not over than 50) in my previous assignments, these assignments were making me more headache because I lost all my confidence and this made me think a lot...The latest assignment, which I handed in last yesterday, was not completed...My conclusion was suck, just few sentences...it is incomplete...I handed it in exactly at the due time...I was worried I might miss the due time...

After these assignments, I was totally disappointed to myself...How come I can be like this? How come I can get these kinds of consequences...Anyway, from now on, I have to focus in my study, especially my final year project...

PS: next week, I have to show the progress of my final year project...Wish me luck...

Happy Chinese New Year~~~

Yeah, finally its Chinese New Year (CNY), but I cant feel anything about it since you know, western country, even the BBC (British Born Chinese) have been "westernized", so they dont really celebrate this event (such pathetic, right?)....However, the British government is really nice, they have a celebration at Chinatown around UK, so its not really bored, actually...

Well, let me tell you what I was doing for my CNY's eve...

Yesterday, I woke up in the morning, and prepared myself to go to church...When I reached the train station, the staff told me that there was maintenance work between Nuneaton and Leicester, so I needed to take train from Bham to Nuneaton, and then changed to take bus to Leicester....Well, at first, I started to think whether want to go or not, since I knew it will delay and I will be late to church service...After a lot of worries, I decided to go (I afraided God will angry of me if I dint go...XDXD)

After half an hour, I reached Nuneaton, and wanted to take the bus...When I got to the bus-stop, the bus was already full, and the staff said we needed to wait for an hour for another bus to come...In my heart, I said,"What the...I will be extremely late to the church..." Anyway, I just waited because I had bought the ticket...Okay, finally the bus came, and I reached Leicester at 3.10pm, while the Sabbath service started at 3pm...However, I still need to wake from the station to church, and it took me 20 minutes (usually 25 minutes since I walk slow and relax....XDXD)

When I reached Leicester church, it was already 3.30pm, and I was thinking whether wanted to go in or not, but I just dint care and walk in...Everyone was looking at me and giving me a "you are late" smile...hahaha...

After 10 minutes, the service was ended, and then I joined the fellowship which served pizza, pastries, sushi and etc...Thanks to Sis.Audrey...During the fellowship, preacher talked about Daniel, and asked us learn from him...

At 6pm, Sis. Katie gave me a lift to train station, and I took bus again to Nuneaton, then train to Bham...Well, since I hadnt have dinner yet, so I went to a Chinese takeaway shop to buy my CNY's eve dinner (I am so pity...T3T...) However, I was quite happy because the food was delicious...

This is my second time celebrating chinese new year without friends and family...Its not a good feeling you know...Thinking of the happiness when you meet your cousins and friends...Visiting from house to house...Eating and drinking unlimited...Gambling, chit-chatting, receiving angpao and etc...Haiz...The most important thing is the reunion dinner...It will be meaningless if the reunion is incomplete...

PS: Happy Chinese New Year~~~

祝：虎虎生风，五“虎”临门，“虎”尽甘来...

New Songs are Added~~~

The song you are listening now, is the new song that I add to my track list, called "The Sore Feet Song"...Hope you enjoy this song...This song I heard from an anime opening themed song, written/sung by Ally Kerr, a Scottish singer/songwriter...When I listen to his song, I was touched by his voice...Then I dug out all the information for this song...Here is Ally Kerr's photo: (not really handsome guy...XDXD)

Anyway, I had also added some songs other than this...Please listen and enjoy...Lyric is provided here:

I walk ten thousand miles, ten thousand miles to see you

And every gasps of breath I grabbed at just to find you

I climb up every hill to get, to you

I wondered ancient lands to hold, just you

And every single step of the way, of pain,

Every single night and day,

I searched for you

Through sandstorms and hazy dawns I reached for you

I stole ten thousand pounds, ten thousand pounds to see you

I robbed convenient stores cause I've thought they'd make it easier

I lived off rats and toads, and I starved for you

I fought the giants bears and I killed them too

And every single step of the way, of pain,

Every single night and day, I searched for you

Through sandstorms and hazy dawns I reached for you

I'm tired and I'm weak, but I'm strong for you

I wanna go home, but my love get me through

Lalalalalalalalalalala~~~

PS: Still 11 days to go for CNY...

BeLieVe~~~

Here is the situation I met yesterday afternoon:

My best friend, A, and best friend, B, are really really closed to each other for years, which mean, they trust each other better than me. Therefore, if I told A that B had done something wrong, A will trust whatever B explains to A, and refused to trust me...What will you feel if you are me? Well, first of all, I kind of sad and disappointed...

Well, these two best friends of mine always claimed that they know me very well, critising my thinking is so shallow...Well, I admit that my thinking is shallow but doesnt mean my thinking is incorrect...Plenty of times, they think that my opinion/point of views are always incorrect for them...Is this mean they have prejudice to me?

These few year, I found out that our relationship is quite weird, everything we have conversation, we will end up our conversation with arguement, but why? Yesterday afternoon, finally I realised that, they have support from one another, which make them think that their POV are better than me...

After this thought, a question suddenly comes to my mind, which is "Why they never think from my aspect?"...They dint claim that they had already thought whatever I had thought, but did they?

Although it is a small conflict, I had finally realised all these reasons...Kind of ironic, right? They just trust one another but not other...Eventhough "BELIEVE" has a "LIE" in the between, why you just wont listen to my explanation which is true? Ain't I your best friend too? Anyway, things happen, its happen...

PS: Please don't mind me wrong, I am not angry, but just wondering...Between friends, there are also comparison...Ironic...

Colour~~

Recently, there was many thing happen in Malaysia, politic, religion, social and etc...Therefore, one of my facebook friend posted a video from Youtube, which is the Petronas Commercial for Merdaka Day 2009...It was about the kids have colour blind because they wont care about races when come to friend...Well, actually I was so impress on this commercial because it was really made a good point for us...However, I suddenly came out a thought that when the kids have grown up, what will happen?

We, human, always change from time to time, our thoughts will be effected by the environment, which mean when we'd grown up, our thoughts will keep on changing all the time...According to my experience, in Malaysia, actually we have colour blind, we can achieve the united country, but what happen to my time, in education, it seem like the government kept on throwing the "colour" to non-bumiputera/puteri and putting a "colourful spectacles" on the bumiputera...The government kept on using the word "bumiputera sahaja" in some sort of application for education/scholarship...Why? Like MARA, why only bumiputera can apply? Matrikulasi, why most of them are bumiputera? JPA, why it is so hard for non-bumiputera to apply compare to bumiputera? Arent our parents paying the same taxes to government? Arent we are "MALAYSIAN"? (Please think it in education view, not in political view...I scare I will be caught by our government...XDXD)

When we (non-B) are walking on the road of education, we can feel that our bodies are painted by different "colours"...The longer we walk, the more colour we can get...At the end, we are buried by the colours...However, now a day, there are some private fields and countries seem like they like the "colour" of our bodies...They think that we are "beautiful" and "artistic", and aceept us to be one of them...After we had been accepted, our government will stand out and saying,"who is the one putting these colours on your bodies? You all should thank me for that, so come back and repay me..." Well, it seem like its too late to say that...

After reading this post, you will ask why you are writing this? Well, I am not so care about politics, just I felt so unfair in this kind of matter...We are one of the country, we are following the liberty of the country, we pay the same bill, but what we get are "colour"...Here is the video from Youtube by Yasmin Ahmand...

PS: Hopefully the government will improve in this way first instead of the politic...XDXD

A Funny Journey Back from Leicester~~~

Every weekend, or I should say, almost every Saturday I will attend Sabbath Service at Leicester church, and normally, I will either close my eyes or enjoying the view outside the train (although I had already taken this trip for plenty of time...) However, I never had a funny trip like today...

Well, as usual, I woke up at 10.30am to prepare myself to go to church...But today, because of the weather (the road outside is covered by thick snow...), I came out a feeling that I don't want to go...However, after I was scolded by my faith, I decided to go...Thanks God, it was not as cold as I thought, but still cold...Thanks God again, the train was not canceled, so I took the train to Leicester...From Leicester station, I walked in a cold weather (-3'C) for about 25 minutes...On the way, light hail was falling, but I just don't care anything and kept walking to the church...It was a good experience walking on the snow, and I think I know how to walk on the snow without slipping...XDXD...

During the sermon, preacher talked about faith, we should steadfast on our faith to God without questioning, just like the 3 friends of Daniel...When the Nebuzaddezar (don't know I spell it wrong or not?) asked them to worship the idol of gold, but they steadfast on their faith, and answered him without explanation...This mean that when we come to faith, we shouldnt explain anything or questioning...Just believe because when we explain, we might losing our faith...Interesting sermon...After the service, we had a sabbath fellowship, which was quite boring...XDXD...but I did enjoyed chatting with them...

The most interesting part was during the journey back from Leicester...Well, when the train started to move for a while, suddenly I heard a old lady, spoke loudly to a young boy...After I looked at the reaction of the young boy (cleaning his mouth...), I knew that he vomited on the floor...I am not sure whether he vomited on the lady or not, but I am sure he ate potatoes for his dinner...XD...Well, when he vomited, his friend immediately turned his face to the opposite direction from him, pretending dont know him...What a WORST-FRIEND-EVER...After that, the lady kept on saying something I can hear, and asking the boy to vomit on a plastic bag...All the passengers around him kept away from the puke, and for sure, covered their noses...No one gave the boy tissues or covered the puke with newspaper...They just let the puke stayed there...Somemore, the kids near the kids kept on mocking on the boy (although I dont really care about what kids said, the parents should know that it was not a manner...) I cant help him because it was way to far from me...XDXD

After a while, the kids came to their parents, and they told their parents it was not good to drink alcohol (I felt funny on it, because everyone in UK, like to drink, when they grow up, they will know drink is good...XD) From this incident, I came out a thought that the UK people:

Dont know how to handle this situation...In Msia, normally we will use newspaper to cover it so that the smell will not spread over the cabin...

They just don't care about what their kids say in the public, although the kids are doing something inappropriate...

After that, I walked from B'ham to the bus stop, and on the way, I heard a man shouted,"FXXK the cop!!!"...Then I heard a short conversation between a little girl with her mom:

Mom: What's the man shouting?
Little Girl: FXXK the cop, mom..
Mom: Don't say the word...

Funny, very funny...Haha...Kid is always that cute...What they heard, they will learn, so speak properly in front of the kids...XD

Well, this is a funny journey from Leicester to Birmingham, although you might not feel funny...

PS: This morning, I had a delicious prawn mayonnaise sandwiches...It was just 99p (RM5++)...very cheap...And I heard that there is a sister from Sabah, called Vanessa Ho, who is now studying in Birmingham, but I am not sure whether the information is true or not...

Flashback 2009~~~Looking Forward 2010~~~

Well, now it is officially Year 2010 around the world...No matter where you are, now is the starting day of 2010...However, what is my aim for my new year? Many people seem like to ask this question...What you plan to do, and how will you do to reach the aim...Well, my one and only aim is reaching the top of my faith to God...

Thinking back Year 2009, my faith was like talking on a mountainous region, up hill and down hill, but mostly down hill, because going downhill was very fast...Last December, I had a question, asking God we are human being, and we live at a place that surrounding by temptation, that's why are always tempted by the world, so can you forgive us if we follow the small temptation? (not the mortal sin...) Thanks God, He answered my question through the mouth of Preacher of my church...

Within 25-27/12/2009, I managed to attend spiritual convocation and evangelistic meeting at Leicester Church. Actually, I am planning to attend two days of the event, which are 26th and 27th, but there are no train to Leicester on 26th, so I had to stay at Bro.Alan To's house, where is located at Rugby, with his wife...This couple treated me very nice and really take care of me, but I felt quite awkward since I don't like to bother people...However, after the convocation, I had learned something, which is,"Blessing will be given to those who serve their brothers/sisters, give them food, when they need it, give them a place to stay when they need it, give them clothes when they are naked..." Therefore, they received me and God will bless them...

Back to the main point, during these two and half days, God answered my question through the word of God - Bible...The Preacher asked us that how the Serpant tempted Eve? The Serpant said,"Eat it, and you 'MAY' not die..."Well, obviously, my previous thinking is follow the small temptation which will not cause my spiritual life to death, but after this reminder, I realised that I was totally WRONG...I was so regret, and I decided to change from now...NOW NOW NOW...

Well, maybe you have this kind of experience, looking at your friends can go clubbing, celebrating Christmas with plenty of people, and etc, you will feel that why I cant join them...Or sometimes, your friends ask you to join them but you keep on rejecting them, will make you less friends, right? However, after the convocation, I really learned a lot, and reminded me a lot of thing that I had already learned it in Theolo...Thank God, He is really listening to our heart, and knows how to let us understand His will...

Talking about my faith in 2009, well, as I said, uphill, downhill...However, one thing that make me feel grace is my origin church, Padang Serai Church...My church is growing now, the kids have activities to attend, the adult members had established a choir...Hopefully they all can keep it on until the day when Jesus comes again...

Year 2010...Another good news to be told is starting from this January, Birmingham will have church service twice a month...Birmingham is second biggest city in England, but there is no TJC church at here...Therefore, we are now starting to gather all the members who work or study at Birmingham, and have a service together...Unfortunately, the time they set is on Tuesday, which is crashing with my class on Tuesday...However, only I can do is pray to God and ask God to use me if He needs me...Since all the members in Birmingham are from China, so they are hardly understand Cantonese and English...Therefore, they need a Mandarin interpretor to help them, and there is few of them can interpret from Cantonese to Mandarin, so I can help them just for sometimes....Anyway, God will tell me when He needs me...

PS: Celebrated my New Year at home by watching Scary Movie 2...XDXD