Father (Part 2)~~

This afternoon, my father texted me and asked me to call my cousin that I rarely know, so that I can ask him to give me a favor in job hunting. He scolded me (maybe...) that I just sat at home, doing nothing. I was speechless and a little frustrated and angry plus stress because until now, my father don't really understand my situation here and he just judged me like he always did...

I am grown up people, and I am always independant, I don't want to depend on other people, I don't like the feelings that forcing cousins do somethings that "might" bring them unconvenient. My cousin is working in electronic company, which is not related to my degree, and the company is in Bangkok, which at the place I don't really like (No offence)...I have my own plan but now, he just broke into my plan and make me to follow his plan because I am his son. He never asked me what I really want to...This is my future, not yours...

My plan is spending one month time to serve God before I start working, but my father is forcing me to find a job immediately...How is my plan, then? Screwed up, because I have to obey him...

Every single text he sent to me is a pressure to me...Is like a pushing button...I had done what I need to do, but now, all I can do is waiting for replies...However, my father doesn't understand this, he said I was sitting at home, doing NOTHING...What? Am I so untrustable for you? Please, let me plan my future with my Heavenly Father...

I understand my father is out of good intention, but it had become one kind of pressure for me, which I cannot avoid or ignore...My father had done the same things to me while I was doing my UK Visa...That time, he dint understand that the agency needed time to approve my Visa, and he kept on calling me, scolding me, saying that I dont really follow up the progress...This made me stress until I din't know how to pray...fortunately, I have my Heavenly Father to comfort me by using the mouth of preacher...Thanks God...

This post is just a way for me to release my frustration and my stress...Pray for me if you are christian...