Knots of My Life~~~

Knot is a method that fastening a thing to a ground so that it will not go out of a restricted area, just like a bot, which fastened at the seaside. The knot I am talking about is the tight between two kinds of material...One of the material is my heart...Another material is something that binding my heart and restricting my freedom...

Money

Recently, I saw my friends, posting lots of their pictures at Facebook, and suddenly, I felt that I was so pity...Why? There are many of my friends came to UK for study, but they can spend the money without thinking twice, or I should say, they are willing to buy expensive foods, expensive clothes and etc...But, for me, before buying a single thing, I need to compare this place with another place, so that I can get cheaper for that thing, even it is just cheaper few pences...Sometimes, I really wish I am a rich guy, buy whatever I want without restriction, but after thinking, if I am rich, will I still stay with God?

God

Well, as a Christian in TJC, I have a lot of rules that I should follow...I admit that sometimes, I really wish I am not a member of TJC, because it's really too many rules I have to follow, but somehow, in my deepest heart, I am still want to be one of the sons of God...I think God still want me to repent and go out to him...Every time, when I want to give up myself to the world, God will hold my hand, telling me that He still appreciate me...Everytime my faith collapses, I still appreciate the bonding between God and me...For other, they won't go to church, but for me, I want to go to church so that I can keep my faith, although it is very little faith left...From these words, you can know that I felt depress to follow the rules, which means I havent get the joy of obedience to God yet, and I am now looking for it...

Myself

My heart had been broken once, and I want to thank the guys who broke my heart, because they taught me how to be selfish...Therefore, it became a shadow in my heart when I want to know friends...Be selfish in everything, dont simply sacrify for them unless they sacrify for you first, these two things I truly learnt from them...However, these will not apply on my church friends since I believed in them more than outsider...

PS: damn emo now...

Happy Holiday~~~

After a month of busy, illness and blurness, finally, it is the end of this year's assignments. Starting from now on, I will have 3 weeks holidays without going anywhere. It might be a boring holidays, but I am thinking to take 3 weeks time to calm down my mind and think about my future. After my Design Assurance's mark is very low, I lost all the confidient in my study and now, I need to think how I gonna do to "renovate" my mind to solve this problem...Well, hopefully I can get a new mind after this holidays...

Latest me...see my panda's eyes, this is the syndrome of assignments' week...

Talking about assignment, this afternoon I had an assignment to pass up, so I had to print it out...Since my assignment need to use colour printer for some pages, so I divided the colour part for the colour printer, and the rest to mono printer...Then I set for the colour printer, 1 page for 1 sheet, but I forgot to set it for the mono printer...After a long queue of waiting for the printer since there are lots of people wanted to use it, and printed my assignment...All the sequence of the mono part is messing up because it was 2 pages per sheet...In my mind," What THE...."...Since the sequence was not in order, I had to waste money to re-print it again, which mean I had to join the long queue again...The problem is the time, the due time is at 2pm, and at that time, it was 145pm, just left 15minutes...In my heart, I prayed to God to let me pass up in time, if not, I will be cut mark...Thanks God, I passed up 5 minutes before due time...

Here is the assignment I passed up today:

Vibration System

PS: This afternoon, there was sleet...XD

Germany Trip is Soaked into Water~~~

Past 2 months, I had already planned to go to Germany to attend European Spiritual Convocation, which located at Heidelberg...Therefore, I started checking the price of the flight and discussed with my friend, who study at Germany, so that I can meet her up before going to the convocation...Then I asked one of my church member about this event that who should I contact with, if I want to attend...Well, she gave me the answer after 2 weeks time and the answer was she also dint know who should I contact, so I decided to send a personal email to the person-in-chance for the event...

The person-in-chance replied my email after 3 weeks time...Well, as we know, when the departure date is getting closer, the price will increasing...Therefore, I checked again the flight ticket, and it was £70++...At this price, it still acceptable, so I need to discuss with my financial supplier, who is my parents, however, I cant contact them since I cant use my mobile call them, and they are busy attending my cousin's wedding...Until now, the price is increased to £100++...What the....Therefore, I made my decision with a cruel-hearted that I gave up this trip...I was so sad, because I was so looking forward the day I can go to Germany, but now, I have to stay at Birmingham for my holiday...Maybe this is the will of God? Anyway, I just have to accept what I have done and decided...

PS: What should I do with my Xmas holidays? Who can help me plan a trip?

Bloggie~~~

Blog is very wide-used tool in this cyber world (internet)...Many people use it to promote their products and items, to share their experience or their lives, to earn money from advertisement in others products and etc...However, I never heard about people use blog as a teaching tool...Well, I have a friend who is now using this tool to teach his students instead of using it as a diary...

He writes all the assignments that he gave to his students and uploads his teaching slides that he had taught in his classes at his blog and asks his students to go to his blog to get the information. Besides that, he is also asking his students to create a blog and he will link them in the blog. Then, he will ask his students to post some passages in their own blog, in English, so that he can read their posts and give some comments on their posts...Well, I forgot to say that, he is an English teacher, who is now teaching at Taiwan...He is a PHD student, who study at Birmingham, and now he is doing research on this method (teaching via blog) in Taiwan...Only I can say is, this research is brilliant...

Just now, I had visited one of his website, which is VoiceThread, and inside the website, it is like a presentation, there are slides show, but with VOICE on the show...It is not live, but is a voice record...This mean you can record your voice, and upload the slides and the sound clip together...It was surprising me, because it is really like a presentation ON-LINE...Well, maybe I am so outdated, so I dont know anything about this website. However, Internet is really a good tool to be used in everything...

PS: After watching the slides show, I found out the level of English in Taiwan is quite low...I dont mean to insult them, but its true...The vocabulary they learn in UNIVERSITY is like a secondary level in Malaysia...Well, maybe they are not focus on English during their secondary level...

Farmer Sons~~~

There were an old farmer has two sons, called Alan and Longman, and before he past away, he told his sons,"half of my farm is belong to Alan, and the other half, is belong to Longman, but you two have to stay together and take care of each other farm..." After that, he closed his eyes and rested in peace.

After the farmer past away, the two sons did whatever the old man told them to do. One day, Longman was out of fertilizers and wanted to borrow some from Alan, but Alan was not at home. Therefore, he just took the fertilizers from Alan's warehouse and put into his farm. When Alan came back to home, he found out that some of his fertilizers were gone, so he thinks it must be his brother took it, therefore, he just let it be...

After Longman found out that his brother don't mind about his fertilizers, he took it again and again even though his brother was in home. Finally, Alan felt lost of his fertilizers for so many times, he decided to ask Longman stop to do that...However, Longman replied him,"Do you really mind that few packs of fertilizers? We are one family, and we should not mind such a small thing..." Alan replied,"Aren't we agree that we take care of each other farm? Well, I don't mind you take few packs, but not that much...I had already tolerated your action for few times, but still you didn't learn from it...I am your family, thats why I tell you the truth of my feeling..."

From the story, what have you learned? Judge yourselves...

Special Feeling~~~

Last 3 days, I was boring so I decided to loiter around the cyber world, and suddenly, I clicked on a photo of my friend...When I looked at the picture, I had a weird feeling from my heart, and make me wanted to see more of her pictures...I kept on looking at her photo for a few minutes, and after I closed the window, I missed the photo and wanted to see it again and again...Well, I think I was shot by a Cupid...I tried to avoid this feeling because I am not ready to get a relationship, although I should get one since I "never" had one...Well, after I had a properly thought, she and me, wont happen...Who is she? That's the secret I never tell (copied from Gossip Girl...XDXD)

This feeling followed me after that until NOW, I still miss the picture (avoid to say "her")...I am missing her, want to start a relationship with her, but thinking of reality, my study, and all the things I have to consider, I dont think it is a good idea...Well, maybe this is just a short term feeling, after a week, I think I will okay with it...

I am, once, have this kind of feeling, not through picture, but in person...She was in front of me, and I did do action by asking her phone number, but she rejected...Well, it was ages ago, still very small that time to get a girl number...After few month, we met up again, and the feeling was totally gone...No feeling to her, but a bit hatred, not because of she rejected me, but because of her attitude...Well, it was a fortunate I think that she rejected me...XDXD

Well, now, I feel so empty, nothing can cheer me up...Looking at the pictures will make me weird, so I decide stop looking at it...

PS: Actually I want to write this post in Mandarin, but I am not used to it...

Life's Brief Candle~~~

As my title of this post says, life is really a brief candle...Its short and fragile, when the wind blows, the light will disappear...Since the day I came back to UK, I received 2 sad news, one is about my dearest church member, and another one is about my primary schoolmate had past away in an accident...

Well, I admitted that I din't really feel sad about my ex-classmate because we were not that close after we graduated from primary school...However, I felt pity to her and her family, because she was just 21 years old, still very young for me, and her family was very sad for losing her...Actually, we are living in God's will...God gives us what He thinks is the best for us, and guides us so that we won't lost our ways...

Actually, I did mentioned her in my previous post, it was about the last time we met up, and what she said to me that time...In the post, I had the last conversation we had that time, and it had me unforgetable memory...Please refer to this link: http://louisblogs.blogspot.com/2009/02/blog-post.html

Maybe because our connection between she and me are not very strong since we seldom met up, so I din't feel very sad, or any strong feeling...When I received a message from my friend, saying that she was died in a tragedy, the first thing I felt was....Nothing, not sad, no happy, my heart was very peace...I din't feel it was unacceptable news because I think this is her time to go, although she was very young...For me, I don't know what will happen tomorrow, so what I need to do now is to follow what God asks me to do, and to take care of myself careful as my life is not only mine, but God and my family...According to the newspaper, she was flushed by a strong flow water when she played water at the below of the waterfall...

Accident, tragedy, disaster and many more are everywhere in the world...We can't just care about the people we known, but also we have to care about the other person who we don't know at all...Well, all I want to say is, take care of yourselves, my friends, because your lives are not only yours, but your parents, your friends, your family, especially God...

Nokia 5800 XpressMusic~~

Hooray...Finally I bought my new mobile phone, which is Nokia 5800 XpressMusic, after I had a lot of thinking and dilema...Actually I don't know why I suddenly got a feeling wanted to buy a new mobile, since my old one still functioning well...(really very good condition because I take good care of it for 4 years time). Well, maybe because my housemate just bought a new hp so he had inspired me to buy a new hp...I know this must be a excuse, well, my hp had been used for years, and it was outdated for a long long time ago...Anyway, the fact is I had bought it now, can't return, can't blame to other people...

Well, before I bought this phone, I was planning to buy either Sony Ericsson (SE) W995 or Nokia 5800, and then after I discussed with my housemate, he told me that there is one phone that is new in the market, which is SE Satio, 12MP camera is the most highest pixels in the market...I was totally attracted by its function, which is also touch screen...After lots of survey and research on it, I still don't feel to buy it because it is too expansive for me...Then, last monday, my classmate, who is British, told me that I can cheat the shop...How? Like I sign a 24 months contract with the shop that I just need to pay £30 per month for 24 months, and I will get a free SE Satio, but because next year, I am not sure whether I still in UK or not, so my British classmate told me that when I go back to Malaysia, I just need to close all my account and leave the country...Well, its really good way to get a cheap phone, but when I wanted to do this, the staff of the shop asked me to show her my passport, which mean they will record down my passport number, so I cant just run away from the country...Therefore, I gave up this plan...

As a result, my plan went back to the old plan, SE W995 or Nokia 5800...These two phones have same benefits, SE has good quality camera and sound system but the design is still the same as the old SE phones, while Nokia 5800 has touchscreen, and as we know, Nokia has many function, although its camera and sound are slightly lower than SE phones...The prices are the same, £200...After all, I chose Nokia because it is touchscreen and has RAM inside the phone...

After that, I found out that, I am really a big fan of Nokia, my first mobile phone was Nokia 3310, then 8210, 8250, 8310, 3200, 6670, and now 5800...See, how supportive I am to Nokia...XDXD

Well, I still glad that I bought a new phone, still not very used to it...Need to pay more time to discover it function...XDXD

PS: My parent still not yet know that I bought this phone...So sssshhhhh........XDXD

Phrases~~~

I try to list out what phrases that I think they are cool or so meaningful for my life:

"Love is like a magic, it is mystery, but still lots of people addicted to it, and if you get to know it, you will find out it is just a trick, cheating on you..." (I didn't mean that all love is like that...)

"Love is a poison, but also is a honey...It can make you die, but it can also make you happy..."

"If you want to do, you don't complain, but if you want to complain, don't do..."

"Jesus is my best friend ever..."

"Sometimes, selfish is necessary to protect our right..."

"Sometimes, naive is the best solution in life..."

"Forgive people is forgiving yourself..."

"Although time can recover our heartbroken heart, it can't recover the scar it left...everytime touch the scar, the pain is still there..."

"God has His own will to us...Just waiting until He comes..."

There are lots of phrases that I had forgotten, so please leave me a comment, telling me what phrasses that had effected you...

In this Early Morning~~~

Now is 6.05am, and I still awake here and writing a blog here...Well, according to my last post about expectation, last night I had an expectation to my "lovely" housemates...Here is the things happen:

Last night, as usual, I cooked for them while my another housemate was cooking soup, so called ABC soup but with ginger instead of tomatoes...After I finished my cook, which was delicious, and put it on the dining table...Then, I went to the kitchen again to check whether the soup was ready yet, so when I took up the cover, only I felt that the handle of the cover was loosing, so I was quickly using my another hand to try to hold the cover so that it wont fall down and break...However, my hand accidently knocked the pan, which was filled by boiling soup, and the soup directly poured on my hand...All the soup was poured out of the pan and my hand get scald...I was stunned for a few minutes to think how should I clean the kitchen, then only I went to wash my hand with cool water...Well, at this time, I took a broom to sweep all the ingredients inside the soup into a dustpan with a lil help by the chef of the soup...While my another housemate, came down to kitchen and had a look, then disappeared like that...This time, I expected that he will help me to do the cleaning, but again, disappointed...With my scald hand, I still need to immerge my hand into the water to squeeze the mop until it dried...Anyway, this is my fault, and I shouldn't expect they will help me to do so...I was so moody that time, since the soup had splitted on my clothes too, so I took a bath then only I started eating my dinner...Then, my hand started to get pain, and I put a lotion on my scald part...Somemore, I was so unhappy with that soup, because it tasted weird...All I can say is the chef was sick, so he put ginger inside the soup because ginger can warm our body, but he just think about himself, he dint mind how the taste will be, and just do whatever he like...Fortunately, I splitted it all...XDXD...

My lovely Right Hand is covered by a sock???

Well, I dont admit that I am a good housemate, but at least, I am considerable...When I cook, I will think about its taste and ask for opinion...Maybe it will too salty or sour, but it still taste nice, not weird...Anyway, as our rules, I shouldnt hand into his cooking, but most of the time, I taste the food, its really tasteless, and he gives the reason that he wants it like to be healthy...Well, healthy not equal to tasteless...I dint criticise his food in front of him, but still he goes on his way...Nevermind, just do whatever I need to do, thats all...

Well, do you think they need to help me? Anyway, at last, I handled it all by myself...

PS: I will buy Sony Ericsson Satio tomorrow...XDXD

Expectation~~

In this world, we are surrounded by expectations, which come from different aspects, such as parents, family members, teachers, friends, and yourselves...There are a lot of people living in this world, which mean we are one of them, and we are living with different kinds of people...There is an idiom in Mandarin, which mean one type of rice raises many types of people...What do you expect other people do the same thing as same as you?

Ya, sometimes, we, ourselves, do expect other people to do somethings "automatically", but they seem like they cant do it as in our expectations...Live example here, a hygience guy lives with a dirty guy, what will happen? The hygience guy will try to put lots of expectation on the dirty one, will end up with arguement...I admit that I meet some guy like the dirty one, and stubborn, I did expect him to do the cleaning section, but end up arguement, then I totally gave up to expect on him...Another example, I have a friend who is mysophobia, his expectation to us is to high standard to us, causing us uncomfortable...He is not allowing us to drop a drop of water on the table...

Parents' expectations are more than the other aspects...This is because we are their children and expect us to get a better success and future...However, too much expectations will cause a invisible stress to the children, that is why lots of students chose to commit suicide instead of facing their parents after getting bad results...But, less expectation will cause the children dont put effort in their life, and will end up getting bad future, unless the children themselves have a mature thinking to know that studying is a access to a bright future...Therefore, suitable expectations should apply on students now a day...

When we're grown up, we live with different people, we will start to expect them to follow your life's rules, but we cant force them to do that, so we have learned to "accept" instead of expect...How much can you accept? It's depend on your EQ...In my previous post, I had admitted that my EQ is quite low...

However, no matter how difficult it is, I will try to reach the expectations from God...Because God loves us first before we love Him...He sacrifices himself to save us, how come we can reach his expectations? I am now trying to reach Him before He comes....

PS: hungry now....

Housemate~~~

Just now, I was so unhappy, totally moody...My housemate, A, wanted to cook for my a dinner as I had cooked for him yesterday but I was very hungry and I cant wait for him to cook for me, so I just said I cooked myself, just for myself...After that, he cooked for my another housemate, J, and both of them had a dinner together...Actually why I felt so unhappy because they felt that I was too selfish to cook for them...I felt so uncomfortable when A said, "dont bother about him, he will not eat together with us tomorrow..."

After this story, you might think, why I dont want to cook and eat together with them...Actually its all because I had a worst housemate before...In the past, I was a good friend, who can do whatever I can to my surrounding friends, until I met this housemate, I was totally changed...I tried my best to help him do this, do that, buy this, buy that, but he dint appreciate my help...What he think is he was deserved to have it from friends, and he just dint felt thankful to all I had done...I was not expecting repaid, but at least a thankful heart...

Another example what he had done, I asked him clean the dining table after using it...In this early period, he did clean the table, after a month, he stopped cleaning it, so I had to clean it myself since we are friend and housemate...However, until I moved out, he was still the same...What will you do to this housemate? Scold him? I had tried that a lot but still no use at all...

After this, I was totally heart-broken...Therefore, I told myself, I wont do anything to my friends unconditional except my hometown friends and church friends...Thats why I dont cook for my current housemates, because I scared that they are using me to cook for them, and they will keep on asking me to cook for them until we move out...Another reason is the ingredient need to be paid, and when relationship come to money, thing will be changed...Agree???

I am trying not to think this way, but I admit that the worst housemate was really hurt me that deep...While my current housemate, when I ask him how my food taste like, he just said whatever as it is a food to him...I was so sad because I spent lots of time in my food, but you just said whatever...Somemore, what will you expect how many food can an engineering student cook? If I am alone, I still can eat curry everyday or anytime I want...Last night, when I said I want to cook curry, he said, "curry again??"...So I replied him, "then I no need to cook for you..."but my heart really uncomfortable to heard what he said...

Really, I want to share food with them, but I dont know what kind of thinking should I have...Now my way of thinking is everything I want to do, is all for myself first...Think of my own condition first...To protect myself from getting hurt...Do you have any suggestion? Please leave a comment for me...I hope you guys can give me an advice to convince me...Thank you,,,

Moody~~

Why? Why this guy who always wearing a mask can get a partner? Because he has a thick skin on his face? Is he got the thing I dont have, so called guts? Maybe God want me to wait until He finds a better partner that suit me...Still waiting...

EQ~~

EQ (Emotional Intelligence) is the most important element that we, human, should have. A person with high EQ, will not easily get mad eventhough people keep on mocking about him. Without EQ, you won't have a cool mind to do something right. I admit that I have a low EQ, because I can easily be provoked by people, especially when I am in a superfluous situation. This was happened again a few hours ago...

I was worry about my tuition fee, which is £9000, and I just paid £4000 as my father just gave me that much, so the rest of amount has to be paid before end of October. Therefore, I am in a superfluos, annoying situation, and called my mother via Skype. In the conversation, I was blasted when my father scolded me that I dint call them yesterday, after I had paid the fee. As a result, I replied them in a high volumn voice saying that I had called my brother, but my brother dint tell them. After these few words came out of my mouth, my mother scolded me, saying that I was so rude and dont have manners at all when talking to my father. After I heard my mother's scolding, I was so regret because they sent me to here for studying but I was not respect and felt thankful to them...Its my fault, because I dont have higher EQ to control myself...I was so sorry to them, and regret about what I had done to my parents...Sorry, mom and dad, because I am not accordance with filial...

I had made a promise, I will not do that again to my parents...Do you have this experience? Please share with me if you have...

PS: Just finish eating a tasty curry chicken, which is cooked with instant curry paste, brought from Malaysia...(Brand A1)...XDXD

Summer Break~~

Okay, this post I will roughly talk about what I had done during my Summer break...

June:
Most of the time stay at my home, and going yamcha every night during weekend...I went to Port Dickson to attend Tertiary Camp...It was fantatic, and learnt a lot from the camp...Actually I had written it in previous blog, so just go there have a look if you want to know better...

July:
Erm...This month, I started to join my church choir, which is just established for evangelistic meeting in August...From the starting, only youth who attend the practise, while the other, going back after Sabbath Service (our practise is after Sabbath..) Then, on the second week of our practise, one of our choir member convince the other to join the choir...Thank God, they were starting attend our practise after a little bit of hesitate...

August:
This is our church evangelistic month, which mean all the northern region (Kedah and Penang) churches were having evangeslistic meeting...Our choir was invited to present songs in Kulim church 2 days before our church evangelistic meeting...Thanks God, we were done well in our presentation, although this was our first time present in front of people...After 2 days, we presented the same hymns to the guests and we had done better than the previous presentation...

September:
This month is my birthday month, so my friends celebrated my birthday for me, and total up, I had celebrated 4 times and get 4 cakes within this month...My friends celebrated with my 1 day younger friend together with my birthday, since our birthday is really close...And now, still in the month of September, I am now at Birmingham...First, during the 14 hours flight from KLIA to Birmingham, I met a few interesting thing such as the check-in counter staff, give me a very comfortable seat, which is at the first row of a cable and is beside the corridor, which mean that there is no seat in front of me, so I can straighten my legs when I felt tired...Second, on the flight from Dubai to Birmingham, there are few people in the flight, therefore, 2 seats beside me are empty...Never meet this situation before, except the day I went to Penang from KLIA...Third, there is an Indian (I think so, since his skin is dark...) sitting 2 seats away from me...Then, he ordered a tin of beer from the air stewardess, and get drunk...I said in my mind," what the...a tin of beer can cause him drunk...If like that, why he orders beer?"...The thing happen after he drunk..He was crying, vomitting, talking nonsense to the air stewardess, walking up and down on the flight, ordering more and more water, angrying and etc...Fortunately, he did vomit on my legs...Haha...When the air stewardess concerned about his situation, he was replying rude to the air stewardess...So pity of her...Then he slept until the flight reached Birmingham...

Conclusion:
I had become fatter within these 3 and a half months...I was surprise when I weight my weight...I had put on a lot of stone...

PS: I had moved to a new house, a bigger room with a better bed in cheaper price...Last night, after the 14 hours journey, I was totally exhausted but still I tidy up all my stuffs, unpacking my luggage and etc...after that, I had jetlack somemore, so I slept on 8pm (UK time) until the next morning...

My 21st Birthday~~~

Well, yesterday is 12th Sept 2009, which is my 21st birthday...First of all, happy belated birthday to me...XDXD...For chinese, 21st birthday is very special day, because when we reach 21 years old, we are "completely" adult, and some parents will give their children who reach the age of 21, a golden key. This key represent the parents give freedom to their children (key open the lock of the house...)

Since I am a Chinese, so this culture is applied on my 21st birthday, but I havent get my golden key from my parent yet. However, I am not really looking forward for the key since my parent had sent me to UK to further my study...Nevertheless, my 21st birthday still a special day for me and I got 4 cakes for this birthday...First cake is from my dearest hometown friends, which was given 3 weeks before my birthday...Second one is from my aunts and uncles from my mother side, given one week before my birthday...Third one is from my churchmates, given by yesterday afternoon...The last one, is given by my dearest hometown friends too on yesterday midnight...haha...The first one and the last one were shared by my one day younger friend, Jian Hung...Unbelievable, I was born one day before he born to this world, and live in a same small town...This is so called, "缘分"...

Well, for this special birthday, I set some goal for myself and will try my best to achieve it within 1 year time...This is because I want to train my determination in one thing...Hopefully I can achieve my goals in one year time...Please pray for me...

PS: thank for the texts that had sent to me, my friends...I feel so warm and touching...For these 3 months in Malaysia, my weight is back to my Form 5...haha...

Emo+ing~~~

When the night comes, the moonlight shown, my heart feels emptiness, nothing to fill inside my heart...Sometimes, I really feel that the world is nothing for me, I want to live for Jesus, but my weakness keep asking me not to...When I want to correct my weakeness, my body keep falling me...Life is nothing for me, but I wont suicide myself because I still son of God, although I am weak in faith...

If my life without Jesus, or Jesus is not chosen me, what will I be? Probably, I will just like the other non-Christian people, wandering in outside world, and live in emptiness forever...Thanks God, He had chosen me as his son...

Because of life is nothing for me, my determination is decreasing...Feel that there is no need to do everything perfect...Maybe 60% enough, no need to reach 80% 90%...How come? If I continue like that, what is my future will be? Without determination, I wont do thing perfectly or I wont have self-esteem...

My friend asked me, what had I done for these 3 months holidays? The answer, nothing...I wont go to work, I dint take a short course like my friend did, I dint really do survey in my final project and etc...Just sleep, traveling, eating, and driving...nothing, nothing, nothing...I have an unproductive holidays...I hate myself like that, but time has gone...

PS: emo+ing

I am Back to Bloggie~~~

Its been a long time (3 weeks) since I updated my blog...Why I dint update blog frequently? Because of "laziness"...Anyway, now I want to write what I had done since my last updated post...(reversing my memory...)

1/8/2009:

August was the evangelistic month for Northern Region Churches, and this day was Sg.Petani Church having evangelistic meeting. I asked a sister, Fui Lei, who is original from Sabah come to Sg.Petani to study at Maktab Perguruan, to attend the meeting at church. We know each other during the time I study at Nilai. Therefore, I drove to Sg.Petani that night together with some youth of my church. When I reached there, I dint see the sister, so I called her to ask her where was she, she said that because of the heavy rain, so she cant attend the evangelistic meeting. In my heart, I said: Thats an excuse, because if she wanted to come, she will ask me or other members to go to her place and fetch her to church...Anyway, I dint mention that out of my mouth, since we are Christian, we should not speak out words that cant hurt people...

6/8/2009:

Kid's Present First

See, I was in there...Haha

There was another evangelistic meeting at Kulim Church, which near my hometown just 20 minutes drive. Glory to God, our Padang Serai Choir, which is just 3 weeks old, was invited to dedicate some hymns at the evangelistic meeting. I was in the choir too. Although our presentation was not that good, since we were still fresh, I think God will appreciate what we dedicated to Him...

8/8/2009:

Its our church having evangelistic meeting. Our choir practised for the last time before we presented it at the night. All Glory to God, our choir became better than the last time we presented and I really touched by the melody of the songs we dedicated...

Kid's Presentation

*I havent introduce our choir, our choir is started because of the evangelistic meeting on 8/8/2009, and the members of choir are mostly middle-age members and the rest are youth...Thank God, the members would like to give their time for practising and within 3 weeks, they had done well in the dedication...

13/8/2009 - 17/8/2009:

I went to KL with my friends, who want to go back to their college at the same time...I stayed at one of my hometown friends, Chia Ching (a.k.a Cacing) who dint meet up for long time, at Setapak Ria...The next day, Chia Ching and I went to window shopping at Sg.Wang, Time Square and Pavillion. Actually we planned to watch a movie then have dinner at Pavillion, but the weather was screwing our plan...Therefore, we just waited the rain stop, and went to Pavillion to have dinner at Sakae Sushi...It was my first time having sushi at Sakae Sushi, and it was really delicious and cheap...The next day, which was Saturday, is Sabbath, so I went to Kajang to attend the service there. I was happy to see the youth there, and I do really miss them the most when I was in UK. When I reached there, I realised that it was the last week Karen, who was just finished her degree and I know her since I started my study at Nilai, in Kajang Church, after this week, she will go back to Sabah. When I got this news, I realised that before I went to UK, I had promised her I will meet her before she went back to Sabah, and now I can fulfill my promise to her...

On Sunday, it was the sport day...The Kajang youth asked me to play basketball in the morning, and I did play basketball with them, and then afternoon, we played badminton...After that, we went to a church member's house to attend her son's birthday party...At night, we went to Cheras for a movie...This day was the tired day in my life...Then, the Kajang youth were so lovely to send the Nilai students (including me) back to Nilai. I stayed a night at one of the Nilai student's house because I need to take back my diplome's certificate in Nilai University College...

The next day, I woke up and I felt that my muscle was pain, as you know, I dint usually do exercise...However, I still wake up and walk to the college from Desa Kolej, which near the college...For sure, my legs were killing me every step I walked...I directly walked to the admin block to take my certificate, then I went to Hospitality block to find my ex-supervisor, Mr.Ravi...However, I found out that the office had changed place, so I asked a student where is the new office for engineering lecturers...After they told me that it had moved to new building, I went directly to the building and paid a visit to Mr.Ravi...After a little chit chat, I went to canteen for my brunch, and go back to my friend's house to grab my luggages, and directly go to the bus station to go back to my hometown...

This is the things happen on August 2009...Although the month havent finish, I think there is nothing special after this...

PS: I might go to KL again, since my cousin brother asks me to pay him a visit at Johor Bahru, so I came out a idea of Penang-K.L-JB trip...However, I still not yet decide, since JB is really really far from here...

Dream~~

Last few days, I saw a church member posting a status comment on his Facebook, saying that a man without dream, is living in vain...Is he correct? No dream, no life...Actually, he got his explanation, but actually, there are many people are having no dream life...including me...What is my dream? I dont know...Will my life goes on? Yes...However, I felt pity to myself sometimes, because if I got no dream, then what is my destination? What is my target? Engineer? No, actually I dont like engineering...I dont like mechanic things, but why I studying Mechanical? Because I still not yet regret...

For a Christian, my dream is to God...To heaven, and eternal life after death...We, human, are very weak, most of us wont give ourselves to God "completely"...I remember there is a song in my Hymn book, saying that,"I prefer myself only, I prefer myself than God, I prefer less to myself than God, I prefer God than myself"...Which one is refer to you? For me, I am refer to the third one, prefer less to myself than God...However, the less part to myself, is still not enough to God...After coming back from UK, I felt that I had learned lot of thing, my thinking is like more mature than past time...Maybe this is God's will...

Anyway, I hope that one day, I can put my dream to God, and love God completely...Not now, because I am not yet prepare...If God is willing...

PS: There is a blog writing about our True Jesus Church and our doctrine, please feel free to read the blog, the website is on my bloglist there, named,"Salt and Light of the World"...

Strict Father~~~

I have a strict father at home, who I cant really communicate well with him...I think most of the families are same as mine, strict father that always scold us instead of praising us...Eventhough we are doing something correctly but they think we are wrong, we will get scolded...As a son or daughter, we are really speechless to them...We cant disobey their teaching, we just have to obey...Sometimes, they scold us not to do this, not to do that, but they themselves are doing the same things as they tell us not to...Like this, can we scold them back? No, for the strict father, but for a warm father, it will be okay...Haha...

However, I still grad that I have a strict father at home, because at least, he is responsible and still think that we are like kids, treating us like kids that need lots of care...Sometimes, I really feel that I am a grown up teenage, but why he still treat me like I do not anything in life or be independent...For example, my mother felt that we can go outside buy food for ourselves, so she wont cook for the day, but for my father, he will tell my mother to buy us food instead of asking us go outside buy food ourselves...At this situation, what can we do as a son or daughter? Both of them are your parent...As an idiom say,"The front and back of hand are meat (direct translated...XDXD)"...At last, I automatically go outside and buy food for myself...haha...

Anyway, my family is my family...I respect my parent and will do everything that I suppose to do as a son in Christ...

What I am Thinking Now~~~

After listening to the video, which post by a UK church member at Facebook, I started to think that, how come I dint join the choir and get closer to the UK church members? I had been in UK for 9 months, but still I was not close to them...Maybe because I am not live near to our church which is at Leicester...Maybe, I am lazy to go to church twice a week...Lot of things are inside my mind...Let's say I joined the choir, for sure, I will close to the members there, right? Anyway, it is past...

Just now, I attended the church youth service. During the service, preacher asked us about what things that made us or block us to know deeper and deeper about Jesus? In our life, what things that is more important than Jesus? Some said, study as I agree too, but after that, I was thinking, the thing that block us more, is ourselves...We think that ourselves are more important than Jesus, so we wont sacrify everything to God especially ourselves...Because of our laziness, our weakness and so and so, blocking us to sacrify ourselves to God...this is true...

I am now missing the time I was in Nilai, church members in Kajang were very enthusiastic and warm, I missed them the most....Anyway, I will meet them somedays....hehe...

Demonology~~

As I had promised in previous post, saying that I will write out this title, which I heard during Tertiary Camp in Port Dickson. This is the thing I learned about:

Before I started this topic, we need to know what is the demon's name according to bible? From (Ezekiel 28:13), here say that an angel, whose name Tyre, adorned with every precious stine, ruby, topaz and emerald and etc...(Isaiah 14:12-13), here tell us the reason why the fallen angel or how the fallen angel falled, because the angel wanted ascend to heaven, and raise his throne above the God...From these two versus, we hardly to say that the fallen angel is demon, but we can know that the angel falled because of pride and proud...However, we will ask why the angel had done one thing wrong, which proud, had been punished by God, but we, human being, had done lot of sinful thing, but still God forgive us? The answer is when God creates angel, angel is the model of perfection (Ezekiel 28:12)...

In the bible, what is the demon's other names?

• Satan (very familiar to Christian so I didnt add bible versus here...)
• Devil
• The evil one (John 17:15)
• The ancient snake (refer to the incident happen to Eve in Genesis)

The characteric of Demon:

• Murderer, not follow to the truth, lier (John 8:44)
• roaring like a lion, finding for someone to devour, which mean to fall people (1 Peter 5:8)
• False prophet, which mean preaching false teaching (Rev 16:13)
• Preventing someone to believe in God or preach gospel to people. Jesus scolded Peter, saying that Peter is Satan, the word "Satan" means Preventing (Matthew 16:22-23)
• Perverting the truth of God (Act 13:10)

These are all the thing I learned, the most important is we have to be careful, alert and self-control, and need to recognise the truth so that we wont fall into the trap of Demon...

PS: Trying to put a picture of Demon, but seem like its not appropriate to put such thing in my blog...haha...

My Result was Released~~~

Yesterday, about 3am in the morning, I saw one of my senior posted a comment, saying that he had passed all his subjects and get 1st class of average mark...Without hesitate, I went to my university website to search for my results...Before I opened the results, I calmed down myself and prayed to God...And the results are:

• Engineering Design (64%) - Pass
• Market Led Business For Engineers D2 (66%) - Pass
• Mechanics Of Materials D2 (77%) - Pass
• Numerical Analysis D2 (77%) - Pass
• Power Devices & Environmental Studies D2 (55%) - Pass *Not sure it pass or failed*

These are the results I get, and average is 67 so hopefully I can pass my 2nd year...Power Devices was damn hard you know, its about thermodynamic, which mean theories, memorising, bla bla...Anyway, thanks God for giving me this results, I will accept everything that you give me including failed...Hopefully, 55% is enough for me to pass that subject...Quite worried...

PS: Dog dog, dont be so upset about your results, I believe you can do it better next time...

June 2009 in Malaysia~~

Its been a month I dint update my blog...the reason is I am lazy and somemore, I had nothing to write because my life in this month, June, was just the same...I worked as a part time driver of my younger brother and sometimes, mother...My salary will be my food supplied at home...Every weekdays afternoon, I have to go to my younger brother's school to fetch him back home...Somemore, I have to fetch him to his tuition classes...Thats my job during this month and I think I will continue this job until I go back to UK...

During this month, I had eaten lots of food that I had missed for a year (actually is 9 months), such as durian, mangoesteen, Indian fried noodles, Hokkein noodle and etc...Furthermore, I had "dim sum" as my breakfast for several times with my friends...haha...I did have "bah kut teh" at my house which was cooked by my mother...Taste really nice especially with the mixed chilli and garlic...

Last 2 week, I attended Tertiary Camp at Port Dickson for 3 days 2 nights...Actually the camp was just 2 days 1 night but since I am from Kedah, so I need to go there 1 day earlier...During the camp, the programs were totally packed, and no time for us to go to beach or chit chat at there...However, I felt very happy there because I met up lot of old friends, and I can stay at new hostel at Port Dickson, which was just built this year...Haha...The hostels are totally awesome, there are many rooms and the rooms are bigger than the other churches, many bathrooms with heater, balconies for each room and toilet, and kitchen there too...It is the best place for organising theological training course or other big event of the church...Beside that, the hostel is 3 stories building, first floor is preachers' rooms, second floor is brothers' rooms, and third is sisters...During the camp, the section I like the most was Demonology, which was talking about Demon...It was very interesting topic...I will write it at my blog the other day...Haha...

Last week, I had a gathering with my primary schoolmates at Penang...Because of this event, I had many contact numbers that I had a long long time or never talked to its owners...We had invited as many as we can contact to, but most of them refused to join us...I was very sad about this because the event is organised so that we can connect to those we had lost contact for many years...Anyway, I cant force them to join, but that day, we had a great time...I met a friend that we dint meet up since primary school...Her name is Yih Ni...Hope to have this gathering one more time, just we dont know when is the time...


Front: Li Ying, Yih Ni, Me

PS: I have a dog called Lucky, named by my mother...

It's 6.41am in the morning (Malaysia time)~~

What am I doing at this time? Suppose I am dreaming about somethings, but I am now blogging at here...Seem like I have some problems about myself recently...

Time goes really fast, I had back to Malaysia about 1 week time and within this week, I had kinda weird feeling that I felt UK is better than Malaysia...Why I felt this way? Maybe is the weather, but isnt Malaysia weather same every year and time? Suppose I will use to it since I live at this country for 20 years time...How come? When I was in UK, I really miss Malaysia, not so much, and I kept telling people I will go back to Malaysia after I gain experience in UK, but now, I'm kinda regret to make this decision...I want to stay and work at UK for long long time, if I can get a job there...Sound like I really dont like Malaysia...

Actually, I have my reasons to say that, because I really very disappointed to our government who is so berat sebelah...Secondly, is the weather, but this reason is not very supportive because I had used to stay at UK where is cold weather, so it really need sometimes to get rid of this problem...Somemore, fat guy dont like hot weather compare to cold weather...This is my experience...

Recently, I met up with my old friends, and asking me about the things happened in UK, and I replied them whatever I know and really happened...Besides that, they also found out that my pronounciation of my Hokkein (mother tongue) is very weird and I speak Mandarin slower than last time they meet me...Seem like I had changed after going to UK...Anyway, its not a serious problem or changes...

Recent posts, I will not upload pictures because I am not used to bring camera when I am in Malaysia so not new pictures recently...Haha...

PS: I will go to Port Dickson this end of month for tertiary training camp...Hope to see my old friends there...haha...

I m at Malaysia now~~~

Finally, I am back to Malaysia...A place called Lemongrass Field where located at North part of West Malaysia, Kedah...The journey from Birmingham to Kuala Lumper was really really making me totally exhausted...First, I cant sleep during the journey because of the seat was uncomfortable (what am I expecting an economy class seat can give me)...Second, it was a long journey, which is 13 hours flight, excluding 3 hours waiting transaction of flight in Dubai...Thirdly, I came back all alone by myself...

When I reached KL, it was already 315pm on 2nd June, and I quickly went to MAS counter to buy a ticket fly to Penang...This day was a bad day for me, because the ticket costed me RM331, and I "thought" I just got RM250, so I went to ATM machine to take money with my ATM card...Unfortunately, I forgot my pin number since I dint use it for 9 months...So I just pressed the "possible" pin number that I will set...It is more than 3 times, so it had been blocked...This mean that I cant take my money...So what should I do now? Fortunately I got some pounds in my wallet, it is 20 pounds there so suppose it was enough for me to buy the ticket...But...one of my soft money was not available to trade because there is a writing on the money...In my mind said," what the...."

Then I was so desperate at there and thinking the next step...Suddenly, I checked my wallet and found out I got RM290...I was zzzz....as I thought I had just RM250...Then I thought I changed 5 pounds was enough, but....when I wanted to pay, I found out I still need RM7 for the ticket...Again, in my mind,"WHAT THE..."

I had no idea other than go back to the casher to trade again...Finally I can buy a ticket and directly went to check in at the counter and then the gate...After 1 hours, I was at Penang, and it was 6pm, so I called my friends, who had promised me to fetch me to a celebration of my another friend's party...Because of the traffic jam, he came 1 hour after the call...

It was the exhausted day that full with the bad luck surrounding me...However, I was so happy to see my friends and family...I got 3 months holiday starting from now, and it might be my "rotting" days or "meaningful" days...haha...hopefully it is the second option...

PS: Here I recommand to those who take flight because of the stewardess, please dont take EMIRATES...Know what I mean? haha...

Goodbye 2nd Year~~

Today is the last day of my 2nd year study for my degree in Mechanical Engineering, after this, will be a long long summer break that I never have one before...This is because Malaysia dont have 4 seasons, so there wont be summer break...Anyway, today is quite happy and felt totally free...

Reebock

Adidas

This morning I dint slept for the whole night because I need to complete my proposal, so after I finished, I went to university and pass up...After that, I realised I forgot to return the books that I borrowed from library and I am going back to Malaysia this coming Monday, so I dont have choice except going back to hostel and take the books and come back again to return...Then I went to city centre to buy some stuffs that my family asked me to buy such as shoes, watches and so and so...At the shoes shop, I almost wander there for 2 hours just to find a nice shoes for my brothers...Somemore, the staffs were very busy and no time to serve me, so I just need to wait...After that, I went to see watches, and guess what, within 30 minits, I had bought a pair of watches...haha...

Watches

Anyway, I will be back this monday...cant wait to smell Malaysia air...haha....XDXD

Final Exam Finished....but~~~

This past 2 weeks, I was having final exam, which were just 3 papers, and now it comes to the end...but I am now really moodless and desperate because I dint finish writing my paper in the required time, somemore, most of the questions I dint really know how to answer....Suppose I knew how to answer it, because it is just like the past semester paper, but because of my 'stupidity', I thought it will not be same as past semester, so I focused on the other things and spent whole night to memorise it...However, the result was, the things were the same...I cant really know how to answer it because I dint focus on the past sem paper...I was deperated...

After the exam, I went to find my lecturer to get my assignment result, guess what...I just got 55.5 over 100....I was zzzz.......Totally moodless...However, the weird thing was I dint really over-react on it, because usually, I will like....What the....or T.T...but now, I felt just moodless and the heart is very peaceful and just accepted the fact...Is this the work of God? I think is....

From these results, I can predict my result will be B or C, or even worst...FAILED!!!! If I really fail, I really dont know what to do....seriously....

Final Exam + Assignments

It is a busy month for me...I have a proposal to pass up end of this month which I havent start any of it because I got exam...After all my exam finish, I have 1 week time to do, so I think that I can do it in 1 week time...Believe me, because I had finished my Numerical Analysis assignment in 3 days time (actually 2 days) without sleeping...Today I was really amazing I think, I dint sleep for whole night to rush my assignment, and then went to exam...It is FINAL exam but still I dint have time to sleep...Wow...Anyway, thanks God although my assignment was suck...Hopefully I did well in my exam...

This assignment, although it is mathematic, it really hard to find the answer...It is called FEA (Finite Element Analysis), is to analyse the beam, how is the strength of the beam and etc...The problem I met is I dont know how to use a software called ANSYS to analyse it, so I just hamtam saja la...Fortunately, I still know how to use MATHCAD to do it...haha...

Stress analysis

Recently I learned how to cook Butter Cream Spaghetti which I learned from Taiwanese cooking show...It is easy to cook and the ingredients are easy to get, and cheap...

Tats all my recently update...Nothing much to say...

PS: after 3 week, I will free like a bird and back to my lovely hometown...wakaka...

Continued Portsmouth and London Trip~~~

Ok...Now is the second part of my journey...On 9/4/2009, last thursday, John and I joined the morning prayer at Portsmouth since a brother fetched us to the coach station and our coach was at 11am, so we had time to join them...The members, as usual, very friendly, they cooked breakfast to everyone who joined the morning prayer, somemore, last night got a brother prepared a meal for us...I was so touching...After a little chit chat with the elder members, its time to go to the station...Joseph and Simon, the youth, were accompany us to the station and waiting the coach to come...The coach came and our journey to London was started...

Along the journey, I was tired and had a nap until we reached Victoria Station in London...When we reached the station, first time we need to do was finding the nearest Tourist Information Centre (TIC) because we need to wait Bro.Lin who stay at church to open the door for us, and we still got 3-4 hours time. Therefore, we need to go around the station. We grabbed a map from the TIC, and put our luggages at a luggage keeper there, cost us £8 per each...And then, we went outside the station to look for the Buckingham Palace, where is the nearest tourist spot from the station....I think because of that day was holiday so many people were there, looking at the guards from the gate of the palace...So do I...haha...

In front of the Buckingham Palace, there is a status, which is a memorial for Queen Victoria...I took many picutres of it and had uploaded to my facebook...haha...

Queen Victoria Memorial

Then, John and I went to the garden, which is under the palace (the palace includes very large area)...Along the way, I saw many vehicle and people passed my by...And finally, we saw guards standing near the gate, which mean we can take closer pictures of them...We took a video of them...

Then we walked to the garden called St.James Garden, and we saw plenty of chair at there, so we took its were for the visitors and FREE OF CHARGE, but after we sat for few minutes, an Indian guy came to us and told us that we had to pay £1.5o per each chair...What the....Nevermind la, since we had sat there for a while...Then we walked to the lake there, where there are lots of birds...and squirrels were there with the birds...haha...

After that, we walked to the palace wall...at there, we met a guard there and for sure, I had took photo with him...haha...After a few walk, another guard was there, standing firmly without movement...Then I wanted to take picture with him too, but its too many tourists there, so I dint have chance to do that...So I just took his solo picture...with his nice blade...

After that we went to Big Ben's Clock Tower and Westminister Abbey...They are combined together...haha...

Then London Eye...At there, I was scared by a stress artist, who made up himself as dead zombie...haha...And I shouted up "What the..." almost spit out F word...haha....

Since the London Eye entrance fee is too expansive for us, we decided to go back to Victoria Station to pick up our luggages and then, took underground train to Old Street Station, which is near our church...Thats the end of our first day in London...Because I got lots of activities in London, I dont know whether I need to write it out here or not, so please leave me a message whether I should or should not? Thanks....

Portsmouth & London Trip

Its been a long time I dint update my blog because of my old Acer Laptop had broken so I cant online recently. Therefore, I took this opportunity to buy a new laptop branded TOSHIBA...Haha...On 3rd April, John(the Taiwanese church member) and I decided to go to Portsmouth, where is the southest church in UK, to attend the Spiritual Convocation for a few days. Because of we made our decision a week before this, so the train tickets were very expansive, fortunately we can get cheaper coach tickets to Portsmouth. For sure, the journey will be longer than taking train. It took us 2 hours 40 min to London and waited at London Station for an hour, then took another 2 hours to Portsmouth.

At the Portsmouth station, we can see a big, iron and old warship anchored at the seashore. We were excited and wanted to take a photo of it. But before this, we had to find a toilet first. When we wanted to find a toilet, Bro.King Weng had waited there for us, so we just went to church directly to leave our luggages at church. After that, Bro.King Weng brought us to the IT area to have a look. I need to see the price for the laptop since I wanted to buy a new one, so I just walked into every shops there so that I can compare the prices between these shops. When we went in Comet, I was attracted by the TOSHIBA laptop that I am using now, and it costed me about £500 including all the requirements I need. After a long consideration, I decided to buy it...



At night, some church members cooked some meals for us since Preacher and his wife were there with us. We had a little chit-chat, and then we had our night service. After the service, John and I met the Youth there, and there is a couple who just get married, and surprisingly, they are just 23 years old...Wow!!!

During the Spiritual Convocation and Evangalistic (3 days, from Sunday until Tuesday), I had learned a lot of things about God's Words. The church members in Portsmouth were really friendly to John and me, they always asked us to eat more and more, and came to sit beside us to chat with us...I really felt warm at there...Good news was, a little baby girl was baptised at the last day of the convocation, Thank God...


Waiting to be baptised


Baptising


Footwashing Ceremony

Actually, we decided to go back to Birmingham on Wednesday, but we dint have much time go around the Portsmouth city, so John came out an idea saying that we can stay one more days here. This means we need to buy new tickets back to Birmingham, so since we need to do that, we decided to stay at London Church for a few days because we never been there before.

On Wednesday, the youth there took us go around the city and visit the warship museums. Portsmouth is an important port for UK during the first world war, where the British was fighting against the France. Another surprise was, there is a Malaysia flat hanging at the top of the root of a cafe inside the museum...Its really weird...



After the museum, we had Fish & Chips beside the seashore, and this was my second time having Fish & Chips in UK. England Fish & Chips are famous around the world, and its true, it is really taste nice...



At night, the youth treated John and me at carvery. Carvery is an English tradisional food, which every food is roasted including vegetables...





Thats the days in Portsmouth and I really like it so much until I kept telling John that if I got money and able to stay at UK when I retire, I will stay at Portsmouth...haha...

To be continue...........

PS: Portsmouth = Ports Mouth....hehe....So it should be a harbor when you first time heard the name...

Assignment + Presentation

Its quite long I dint update my blog, because I dont motivation to write things in my blog...I think this happen since I cannot upload my pictures into my blog, if I just write and write a blog like this, it will be a boring and colourless blog...Anyway, I have to active my blog.

Recently, I had one assignment and one presentation to do, and I spent 2 days to complete my works...Started from Monday until Wednesday...My assigment is about law and legislation of UK and European United which regulating to the industrial and commercial organisation in UK...So it is more like a law which act upon the activities of industries...Therefore, I had to find out the activities of industries that regulated to the legislation due to the environmental isssues, such as emission to air, water and land, waste management and etc...That is laws, so I cant chage the words in laws, but I scared my lecturer catch me as plagarism...haiz...anyway, I do copy paste from the website...

I finished my first part of my assignment on Monday, spent 9 hours to do so, because a lot of legislation that act on the industries, then I slept for few hours...This cause me miss my lab which is important for me...Haiz...Who ask me burn the midnight oil...

On Tuesday night, I went to my friends' house to do my last part of the assignment...I finished it after midnight, and go to sleep for a while...Guess what? I sleep "too while"...until I missed my morning lecture...What the...Anyway, I also need time to do my presentation...When I started to do the presentation slides with my teammates, we found out it need lots of things to be covered in the presentation, but we just left 2 hours to go...Then we kept on thinking out the idea of the presentation, and bla bla bla...after 2 hours, we finally finished the slides...

The disaster hadnt end so fast, after we presented all the slides, our lecturer asked us some questions, but none of us could answer his questions...We were stop at there and tried to discuss the questions, but we still cant find out what is the answer...In my mind, saying that, this time "si liao"...

After all the other groups present, our lecturer said to us, that today every groups were bad, none of us doing good presentations, our presentation is not inclduded the things that its need...This is the first time I saw the serious face in my lecturer's face...And I felt so sorry to him...Because of our lack of time, and dint pay attention in class, we dint a bad thing...

Here ends of my update...I will update blog as soon as I have motivation again...

PS: I had paid deposit for my next year house, means that next semester I will move out to priveate house out of hostel...Yeah!!

Busiest Days...

Last Sunday and Monday were the busiest days in my life...These two days I dint sleep at all just to do my assignments by using MathCad and Pro_E...Why I was so busy until I dint sleep for days? Because of a Chinese proverb,"临时抱佛脚"...Meant that I was doing my work when the time was near to the deadline...

I rushed my MathCad for my Numerical Analysis which can be called as "Mathematic for Engineering", after that I was totally relax because I thought that the design work will be easier than this. However, I was wrong to think, totally wrong thinking...As a result, I had to work faster and write a report in 2 hours time, which meant that I had no enough time to write down all the requirements of the report...Haiz...At that time, I had no time to regret, so I just pass up my so called,"report" to the IT desk, where we normally passed up our assignments...The time I passed up was at 1.59pm and 30 seconds, while the due time was 2pm...If I late to due up, my mark will be cut off...So the feeling was very very nervous and it was freaking me out...The feeling was continued after I had passed up, and I was in a condition of tension, but I kept on stopping me to think about it since it had been a fact...

Now, I show you all what I had done in my assignment for design a gearbox...



Gear(Grey) and Bearing(Blue)



Full Gear Box...

Society~~~

Nowaday, the society is sick, as the society is sick, therefore, the world is sick...Why the society will sick? Because of human being, the desire of human, make the society and the world sick...Eventhough we all know these issues, we still do the same things to the world and society including you and me...I think...

Last two weeks, I read online newspaper, which is Malaysia newspaper, a news happened in Singapore, a 14 years old secondary school boy had sexual relationship for 6 times with his teacher, who is 32 years old married woman...After I read this news, I was surprised, how come a 14 years old teenager willing to have sex (more directly speaking...) with his teacher who is older than him for so so many years...I kept on asking myself, what happened to the society nowaday? (社会怎么了?) Then I told my classmates about that, but my classmate replied me back that there is too many thing I dont understand...Ya, sure, many thing I still have to learn and know, but how come this will happen?

Last year, I had received an email from my friend, then I read the mail, it said that a father in Austria house arrested his daughter in his basement for years, and he raped his own daughter and his daughter gave birth to 3 children...The children and the mother all live in the basement, no sunlight go into it, so when the tragedy (should I say it as scandal?) was found out, the children was freed and saw the sunlight for the first time, and they tried to catch the sunlight...What do you think about these?

In Malaysia, there were so many cases about the old father raped his own daughter, even grandfather raped his own grandchild...World is changing, new generation is changing, the thinking of human are changing, I am Changing...How about you? Changing to be nicer, or worse? Environment will change people thinking, the best examples are you and me...I changed my thinking based on the environment I live in, however, we still got our own principles that would never change...for now...who know the future? The principles will change because of environment or time...or maybe human being, society, friends around you, will be the factors that change your principle and thinkings...

PS: If you disagree with me, you may post a comment for me, I will appreciate your comment and maybe, I will accept your opinion or thoughts...^-^