When the night comes, the moonlight shown, my heart feels emptiness, nothing to fill inside my heart...Sometimes, I really feel that the world is nothing for me, I want to live for Jesus, but my weakness keep asking me not to...When I want to correct my weakeness, my body keep falling me...Life is nothing for me, but I wont suicide myself because I still son of God, although I am weak in faith...
If my life without Jesus, or Jesus is not chosen me, what will I be? Probably, I will just like the other non-Christian people, wandering in outside world, and live in emptiness forever...Thanks God, He had chosen me as his son...
Because of life is nothing for me, my determination is decreasing...Feel that there is no need to do everything perfect...Maybe 60% enough, no need to reach 80% 90%...How come? If I continue like that, what is my future will be? Without determination, I wont do thing perfectly or I wont have self-esteem...
My friend asked me, what had I done for these 3 months holidays? The answer, nothing...I wont go to work, I dint take a short course like my friend did, I dint really do survey in my final project and etc...Just sleep, traveling, eating, and driving...nothing, nothing, nothing...I have an unproductive holidays...I hate myself like that, but time has gone...
PS: emo+ing
When the Roll Is Called Up Yonder
3 weeks ago
3 comments:
Everything happens for a reason. Gos is the only One that can fill the void in our heart. Jesus chose the weak to be save. HAVE FAITH! All the best in your coming final year.
Thx, dang dang...
At least you did eat,travel,drive,meet some friends,and of course helping in church. Frankly, you did helped quite alot. Be happy lar..........=D
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