Housemate~~~

Just now, I was so unhappy, totally moody...My housemate, A, wanted to cook for my a dinner as I had cooked for him yesterday but I was very hungry and I cant wait for him to cook for me, so I just said I cooked myself, just for myself...After that, he cooked for my another housemate, J, and both of them had a dinner together...Actually why I felt so unhappy because they felt that I was too selfish to cook for them...I felt so uncomfortable when A said, "dont bother about him, he will not eat together with us tomorrow..."

After this story, you might think, why I dont want to cook and eat together with them...Actually its all because I had a worst housemate before...In the past, I was a good friend, who can do whatever I can to my surrounding friends, until I met this housemate, I was totally changed...I tried my best to help him do this, do that, buy this, buy that, but he dint appreciate my help...What he think is he was deserved to have it from friends, and he just dint felt thankful to all I had done...I was not expecting repaid, but at least a thankful heart...

Another example what he had done, I asked him clean the dining table after using it...In this early period, he did clean the table, after a month, he stopped cleaning it, so I had to clean it myself since we are friend and housemate...However, until I moved out, he was still the same...What will you do to this housemate? Scold him? I had tried that a lot but still no use at all...

After this, I was totally heart-broken...Therefore, I told myself, I wont do anything to my friends unconditional except my hometown friends and church friends...Thats why I dont cook for my current housemates, because I scared that they are using me to cook for them, and they will keep on asking me to cook for them until we move out...Another reason is the ingredient need to be paid, and when relationship come to money, thing will be changed...Agree???

I am trying not to think this way, but I admit that the worst housemate was really hurt me that deep...While my current housemate, when I ask him how my food taste like, he just said whatever as it is a food to him...I was so sad because I spent lots of time in my food, but you just said whatever...Somemore, what will you expect how many food can an engineering student cook? If I am alone, I still can eat curry everyday or anytime I want...Last night, when I said I want to cook curry, he said, "curry again??"...So I replied him, "then I no need to cook for you..."but my heart really uncomfortable to heard what he said...

Really, I want to share food with them, but I dont know what kind of thinking should I have...Now my way of thinking is everything I want to do, is all for myself first...Think of my own condition first...To protect myself from getting hurt...Do you have any suggestion? Please leave a comment for me...I hope you guys can give me an advice to convince me...Thank you,,,