2nd Week in Malaysia~~

It was 2 weeks since I came back from UK to Malaysia, and I feel I had come back for a long time...Maybe I had done lots of things within these 2 weeks, making me feel that way...Anyway, I havent told you all about the reason I made a sudden decision to come back to Malaysia...The story is like this:-

On the night of 9th September, I checked online about PSW, then I found out that I was not eligible to apply because I had no at least £800 in my bank account for the past 3 months...It was my mistake, I should prepare it earlier...Therefore, I had to go back to Malaysia to apply if I want to come back again to UK...

The reason I made quick decision because I was staying at my church member house, so I felt awkward to stay longer...Actually, all this I think is God's will...During YTTC, I prayed that if I cannot get a job after YTTC, I will straightly go back to Malaysia, but I did not do what I pray for...I still stay back here even I did not get a job...Therefore, God wants me to come back to Malaysia since it was the thing I pray for...

These 2 weeks time in Malaysia, I ate a lot and met lots of old old friends...I had 3 interviews and applied many jobs...I am still waiting for replies...I did these so that my father will stop forcing me to find a job...Anyway, I do whatever he asks me to do...

PS: My yougest brother birthday today...

知足常乐~~Satisfaction

Recently, I saw one of my old schoolmate posted a status on his facebook account, saying that if he can choose what to be in his next life (Buddhism = reincarnation), he wanted to be born in a riches family so that he can buy whatever he wants without considering the prices. I was so angry and disappointed on him. As a man, he should fight for it by himself instead of depending on his parents. I know him since childhood, and after 17 years old, we all separated different directions to pursue our ambitions. From what I know, he is the only child of his parents, so they indulge him, trying their best to satisfy their only son. I think this is the reason that he posted the status in Facebook.

As I know, his parents are not wealthy people but still, they buy many luxury (wasted, I should say) things for him, such as LV, Gucci and bla bla bla. He is a man, what for he pursues these kinds of material thing, although he is sissy guy. He should be responsible to his parents, give them money, or at least don't let them to spend much money on him. Anyway, this is all his business. His parents had done wrong on their child education.

I am so lucky that my parents trained us to be frugal. Maybe because I have 4 brothers, so they have to do that to cut down our family's expenses. In Bible, there are many verses talking about this thing. Meanwhile, Bible has taught us to be satisfaction to what we have now. Don't pursue something unneccassary to our Souls.

Anyway, I hope that he can wake up from his indulgence, stop wasting money on material thing but in more meaningful thing such as helping his family.

Father (Part 3)~~~

I shouldn't ask my parents for suggestion, because everytime end up with an arguement, since they don't really understand me especially my father...

I just finished my call with them and I was so sad and disappointed that my father still do not understand my needs and my thinking, although I had told them about my plan. If I go back to Malaysia, I plan to use 3 months times to serve God...However, I don't think this gotta work now because my father will force me to find a job...Why he has such small faith in God? He supposes to feel happy about me, but unfortunately, he won't let me do that...Maybe I just stay back in UK, escape from my father, is not a bad idea...I believe that God will guide me when I make the decision...

What should I do? What should I do? Am I confident to myself that I can survive in UK by doing part time?