Housemate~~~

Just now, I was so unhappy, totally moody...My housemate, A, wanted to cook for my a dinner as I had cooked for him yesterday but I was very hungry and I cant wait for him to cook for me, so I just said I cooked myself, just for myself...After that, he cooked for my another housemate, J, and both of them had a dinner together...Actually why I felt so unhappy because they felt that I was too selfish to cook for them...I felt so uncomfortable when A said, "dont bother about him, he will not eat together with us tomorrow..."

After this story, you might think, why I dont want to cook and eat together with them...Actually its all because I had a worst housemate before...In the past, I was a good friend, who can do whatever I can to my surrounding friends, until I met this housemate, I was totally changed...I tried my best to help him do this, do that, buy this, buy that, but he dint appreciate my help...What he think is he was deserved to have it from friends, and he just dint felt thankful to all I had done...I was not expecting repaid, but at least a thankful heart...

Another example what he had done, I asked him clean the dining table after using it...In this early period, he did clean the table, after a month, he stopped cleaning it, so I had to clean it myself since we are friend and housemate...However, until I moved out, he was still the same...What will you do to this housemate? Scold him? I had tried that a lot but still no use at all...

After this, I was totally heart-broken...Therefore, I told myself, I wont do anything to my friends unconditional except my hometown friends and church friends...Thats why I dont cook for my current housemates, because I scared that they are using me to cook for them, and they will keep on asking me to cook for them until we move out...Another reason is the ingredient need to be paid, and when relationship come to money, thing will be changed...Agree???

I am trying not to think this way, but I admit that the worst housemate was really hurt me that deep...While my current housemate, when I ask him how my food taste like, he just said whatever as it is a food to him...I was so sad because I spent lots of time in my food, but you just said whatever...Somemore, what will you expect how many food can an engineering student cook? If I am alone, I still can eat curry everyday or anytime I want...Last night, when I said I want to cook curry, he said, "curry again??"...So I replied him, "then I no need to cook for you..."but my heart really uncomfortable to heard what he said...

Really, I want to share food with them, but I dont know what kind of thinking should I have...Now my way of thinking is everything I want to do, is all for myself first...Think of my own condition first...To protect myself from getting hurt...Do you have any suggestion? Please leave a comment for me...I hope you guys can give me an advice to convince me...Thank you,,,

Moody~~

Why? Why this guy who always wearing a mask can get a partner? Because he has a thick skin on his face? Is he got the thing I dont have, so called guts? Maybe God want me to wait until He finds a better partner that suit me...Still waiting...

EQ~~

EQ (Emotional Intelligence) is the most important element that we, human, should have. A person with high EQ, will not easily get mad eventhough people keep on mocking about him. Without EQ, you won't have a cool mind to do something right. I admit that I have a low EQ, because I can easily be provoked by people, especially when I am in a superfluous situation. This was happened again a few hours ago...

I was worry about my tuition fee, which is £9000, and I just paid £4000 as my father just gave me that much, so the rest of amount has to be paid before end of October. Therefore, I am in a superfluos, annoying situation, and called my mother via Skype. In the conversation, I was blasted when my father scolded me that I dint call them yesterday, after I had paid the fee. As a result, I replied them in a high volumn voice saying that I had called my brother, but my brother dint tell them. After these few words came out of my mouth, my mother scolded me, saying that I was so rude and dont have manners at all when talking to my father. After I heard my mother's scolding, I was so regret because they sent me to here for studying but I was not respect and felt thankful to them...Its my fault, because I dont have higher EQ to control myself...I was so sorry to them, and regret about what I had done to my parents...Sorry, mom and dad, because I am not accordance with filial...

I had made a promise, I will not do that again to my parents...Do you have this experience? Please share with me if you have...

PS: Just finish eating a tasty curry chicken, which is cooked with instant curry paste, brought from Malaysia...(Brand A1)...XDXD

Summer Break~~

Okay, this post I will roughly talk about what I had done during my Summer break...

June:
Most of the time stay at my home, and going yamcha every night during weekend...I went to Port Dickson to attend Tertiary Camp...It was fantatic, and learnt a lot from the camp...Actually I had written it in previous blog, so just go there have a look if you want to know better...

July:
Erm...This month, I started to join my church choir, which is just established for evangelistic meeting in August...From the starting, only youth who attend the practise, while the other, going back after Sabbath Service (our practise is after Sabbath..) Then, on the second week of our practise, one of our choir member convince the other to join the choir...Thank God, they were starting attend our practise after a little bit of hesitate...

August:
This is our church evangelistic month, which mean all the northern region (Kedah and Penang) churches were having evangeslistic meeting...Our choir was invited to present songs in Kulim church 2 days before our church evangelistic meeting...Thanks God, we were done well in our presentation, although this was our first time present in front of people...After 2 days, we presented the same hymns to the guests and we had done better than the previous presentation...

September:
This month is my birthday month, so my friends celebrated my birthday for me, and total up, I had celebrated 4 times and get 4 cakes within this month...My friends celebrated with my 1 day younger friend together with my birthday, since our birthday is really close...And now, still in the month of September, I am now at Birmingham...First, during the 14 hours flight from KLIA to Birmingham, I met a few interesting thing such as the check-in counter staff, give me a very comfortable seat, which is at the first row of a cable and is beside the corridor, which mean that there is no seat in front of me, so I can straighten my legs when I felt tired...Second, on the flight from Dubai to Birmingham, there are few people in the flight, therefore, 2 seats beside me are empty...Never meet this situation before, except the day I went to Penang from KLIA...Third, there is an Indian (I think so, since his skin is dark...) sitting 2 seats away from me...Then, he ordered a tin of beer from the air stewardess, and get drunk...I said in my mind," what the...a tin of beer can cause him drunk...If like that, why he orders beer?"...The thing happen after he drunk..He was crying, vomitting, talking nonsense to the air stewardess, walking up and down on the flight, ordering more and more water, angrying and etc...Fortunately, he did vomit on my legs...Haha...When the air stewardess concerned about his situation, he was replying rude to the air stewardess...So pity of her...Then he slept until the flight reached Birmingham...

Conclusion:
I had become fatter within these 3 and a half months...I was surprise when I weight my weight...I had put on a lot of stone...

PS: I had moved to a new house, a bigger room with a better bed in cheaper price...Last night, after the 14 hours journey, I was totally exhausted but still I tidy up all my stuffs, unpacking my luggage and etc...after that, I had jetlack somemore, so I slept on 8pm (UK time) until the next morning...

My 21st Birthday~~~

Well, yesterday is 12th Sept 2009, which is my 21st birthday...First of all, happy belated birthday to me...XDXD...For chinese, 21st birthday is very special day, because when we reach 21 years old, we are "completely" adult, and some parents will give their children who reach the age of 21, a golden key. This key represent the parents give freedom to their children (key open the lock of the house...)

Since I am a Chinese, so this culture is applied on my 21st birthday, but I havent get my golden key from my parent yet. However, I am not really looking forward for the key since my parent had sent me to UK to further my study...Nevertheless, my 21st birthday still a special day for me and I got 4 cakes for this birthday...First cake is from my dearest hometown friends, which was given 3 weeks before my birthday...Second one is from my aunts and uncles from my mother side, given one week before my birthday...Third one is from my churchmates, given by yesterday afternoon...The last one, is given by my dearest hometown friends too on yesterday midnight...haha...The first one and the last one were shared by my one day younger friend, Jian Hung...Unbelievable, I was born one day before he born to this world, and live in a same small town...This is so called, "缘分"...

Well, for this special birthday, I set some goal for myself and will try my best to achieve it within 1 year time...This is because I want to train my determination in one thing...Hopefully I can achieve my goals in one year time...Please pray for me...

PS: thank for the texts that had sent to me, my friends...I feel so warm and touching...For these 3 months in Malaysia, my weight is back to my Form 5...haha...

Emo+ing~~~

When the night comes, the moonlight shown, my heart feels emptiness, nothing to fill inside my heart...Sometimes, I really feel that the world is nothing for me, I want to live for Jesus, but my weakness keep asking me not to...When I want to correct my weakeness, my body keep falling me...Life is nothing for me, but I wont suicide myself because I still son of God, although I am weak in faith...

If my life without Jesus, or Jesus is not chosen me, what will I be? Probably, I will just like the other non-Christian people, wandering in outside world, and live in emptiness forever...Thanks God, He had chosen me as his son...

Because of life is nothing for me, my determination is decreasing...Feel that there is no need to do everything perfect...Maybe 60% enough, no need to reach 80% 90%...How come? If I continue like that, what is my future will be? Without determination, I wont do thing perfectly or I wont have self-esteem...

My friend asked me, what had I done for these 3 months holidays? The answer, nothing...I wont go to work, I dint take a short course like my friend did, I dint really do survey in my final project and etc...Just sleep, traveling, eating, and driving...nothing, nothing, nothing...I have an unproductive holidays...I hate myself like that, but time has gone...

PS: emo+ing