L0uIS ThoUghTs & ExP3ri3nc3s

Now, 7.05pm, I am at Flat 1, Room 2, Rowan House, The Coppice, Hall Residence of BCU, Perry Bar, Birmingham, just after looking at my friend, Jason Wong's (usually I call him "wo-wo" means doggy) blog, I had some strong feeling that reminding me back the time I was in Nilai International University College. The time there, now only I realised that, I took quite less photo which my classmates or friends there. However, the memories are still in my mind...Something is very good and happy, but something which make me very sad...

While looking at his blog, I was looking for my name in his blog and wanted to see what things that he will describe me...Actually I shouldn't so care about his description about me, but...This is because he was my very good friend from Sem 1 to Sem 3 or Sem 4, after that, he was slowly changed his attitude...Slowly he left us and join other groups...At that time, I haven't realise that he started to leave us and change his attitude toward us...Because, I was believe in him...After 1 day, my friends told me that he had changed, he was a person that using friends as one of his tool (finally he admitted it in his blog)...However, I was very naive that time, I still keep on advising him that although you have new friends, you shouldn't neglect your old friends, but I think that time, he was not listen to me (who I am, I just a tool for him)...

After the day I know about him, the time in NIUC was very painful and very difficult to go through....Thinking too much become my disease...I felt that every friends that I believe in, betray me, left me alone there, try to isolate me from them...But in front of me, they acted like very closed to me...I was very sad that time but who gonna come and understand me....No one....However, now the pain is cured but they let me learn 1 thing, that is, believe in yourself more than your friends...Thinking of yourself before thinking of friends...

During my last semester at NIUC, I had learned to become a "don't care" of everything about my friends there...What they had done to me, I don't care...They isolated me, I also don't care...Now I am at UK, trying to start new life here...

Although there was many thing making me very unhappy during my college life, there was still have something that made me very happy, that is I had drived car from my hometown to Nilai, with it, I can join most of the ativities that organised by my church...This made me closed to Kajang Church youths...They don't have intention to be my friend...Thanks God...God wouldn't betray us but just we will betray God...

Anyway, if you are one of my ex-college friends, I am sorry to write this feeling down, but this is what Namewee (the author of "Negarakuku") said, "tetapi ini ialah aku punya betul feeling"...However, now I don't angry with you all already, because you all had taught me a lot og things, good thing or bad things also, it will be 1 of my good memories....