Confusion

Actually this blog I cannot write it first since my UK university offer letter hven come yet but I write this blog now because I wanna keep the feeling which I will face when I wanna to decide to go UK or stay at Malaysia.

Just now, I chatted with my friend and he told me that what will we do before I leave Nilai, go sing K, yamcha and etc. These things make me want to stay in Malaysia because there is a lot of things that make my heart to stay, a lot of memories and etc, which confuse my decision to go oversea. Haiz...If I stay, I can stay more longer with them and attending the church activities with my dear churchmates. Although in UK, I can also join their activities but in different situation and environment. A totally brand new life there, no bus can go bck home, just flight that can bring me home but cant go bck every semester break. This will confuse me to make decision.

I dont mean that I scare brand new life, but I just scare I cant suit the environment there, cold and the education is high level which I scare I cant follow up the syllabus. A lot of things that I have to consider before going there. Because of UK can give me good education, I choose to go there but......Haiz.....Only God will guide me.....Pray hard lor....

What do I really need? A good education or good friendship? Stay here, I can stay longer with my dear friends, go oversea, I can get good education...What to choose? Remember last time when I came to Nilai, I got this kind of feeling too, feeling desparate, lonely, but fortunately I got my brother's friend here so he intro his frens to me so that I wont be lonely here. Therefore, I think that God arrange all of it, so God will also arrange a better way for me to go...