L0uIS ThoUghTs & ExP3ri3nc3s

Starting from today, is my study week adi....Thinking of the 1st day of this semester, I felt like its just yesterday matter because of this semester is short semester, so just have 7-8 weeks of classes only...So this time for this semester is short + summore CNY holidays make the time pass more faster (we will feel the time past very fast during our happy or relaxing time)...

Recently I'm always thinking of sumthing, sumthing that make me happy and unhappy. 1st thing is last few month, I helped 1 of my friend doing sumthing very stupid that he need my help very much. After I helped him, many people said that I am very stupid and I shouldn't do that because this matter can ruin my trustworthy, so they said next time can't do that anymore. Actually, when they advise me, I still think that I din't do wrong, but now, I think I had done something stupid. After I helped him, he was very very appriciate my help and will remember my help, because of this, I din't feel that this is sumthing stupid. However, now I'm thinking back, he jz felt appriciation at that time but not until now....So I think I 'm so stupid.....But, whatever la....Let it be....

Actually, recently I'm also thinking of 1 question of did I fall in love with sum1? Sometimes, when I saw a couple walking together at my college, I was thinking that should I find a girlfriend so that I can feel the love that the couples feel? I got 1 girl in my mind, but I don't have brave to let her know about it...I don't know whether she like me onot, sometimes, I got feeling that she like me, but sometimes, no...I scare to get hurt and rejected by her and no more friend....I scare I can't let her happy or satisfy her needs.....haiz....I think I'm "bi-bi" and dont have confidence at my physical look....Fat, ugly, etc....

I'm also thinking of which and where should I further my study after I graduated my diploma level at Nilai. Monash? Nottingham? Curtin? Or directly go to oversea like Singapore, UK....These things are going around my mind, thinking of which 1 is better....My father recommend me go Singapore study la, but he dint force me to go, just suggest to me. Actually I wanna go to UK since the scenary there very good and beautiful, its a very good study environment. So in my choices are:

1. Nottingham University (Malaysia Campus) then last year at main campus at UK
2. Monash University (Malaysia) then last year at Australia
3. Curtin University (Malaysia) then last year at Australia
4. Singapore (dunno which university la)

the problem for Nottingham Uni is I scare they will ask me repeat the whole degree course. This is wasting my diploma la, so hopefully, after I graduated, they can accept my diploma cert la....Monash Uni le, I got a private reason that make me don like to study at there, while for Curtin, its too far from my hometown, need to take aeroplane de ler....haiz....Lastly, Singapore, this problem is, it is not UK....haha....

Anyway, I am very happy that my father let me choose my way and he said he prepare to send me oversea, so I can let my eyes see more thing and learn more thing, more independence.....