Starting from today, is my study week adi....Thinking of the 1st day of this semester, I felt like its just yesterday matter because of this semester is short semester, so just have 7-8 weeks of classes only...So this time for this semester is short + summore CNY holidays make the time pass more faster (we will feel the time past very fast during our happy or relaxing time)...

Recently I'm always thinking of sumthing, sumthing that make me happy and unhappy. 1st thing is last few month, I helped 1 of my friend doing sumthing very stupid that he need my help very much. After I helped him, many people said that I am very stupid and I shouldn't do that because this matter can ruin my trustworthy, so they said next time can't do that anymore. Actually, when they advise me, I still think that I din't do wrong, but now, I think I had done something stupid. After I helped him, he was very very appriciate my help and will remember my help, because of this, I din't feel that this is sumthing stupid. However, now I'm thinking back, he jz felt appriciation at that time but not until now....So I think I 'm so stupid.....But, whatever la....Let it be....

Actually, recently I'm also thinking of 1 question of did I fall in love with sum1? Sometimes, when I saw a couple walking together at my college, I was thinking that should I find a girlfriend so that I can feel the love that the couples feel? I got 1 girl in my mind, but I don't have brave to let her know about it...I don't know whether she like me onot, sometimes, I got feeling that she like me, but sometimes, no...I scare to get hurt and rejected by her and no more friend....I scare I can't let her happy or satisfy her needs.....haiz....I think I'm "bi-bi" and dont have confidence at my physical look....Fat, ugly, etc....

I'm also thinking of which and where should I further my study after I graduated my diploma level at Nilai. Monash? Nottingham? Curtin? Or directly go to oversea like Singapore, UK....These things are going around my mind, thinking of which 1 is better....My father recommend me go Singapore study la, but he dint force me to go, just suggest to me. Actually I wanna go to UK since the scenary there very good and beautiful, its a very good study environment. So in my choices are:

1. Nottingham University (Malaysia Campus) then last year at main campus at UK
2. Monash University (Malaysia) then last year at Australia
3. Curtin University (Malaysia) then last year at Australia
4. Singapore (dunno which university la)

the problem for Nottingham Uni is I scare they will ask me repeat the whole degree course. This is wasting my diploma la, so hopefully, after I graduated, they can accept my diploma cert la....Monash Uni le, I got a private reason that make me don like to study at there, while for Curtin, its too far from my hometown, need to take aeroplane de ler....haiz....Lastly, Singapore, this problem is, it is not UK....haha....

Anyway, I am very happy that my father let me choose my way and he said he prepare to send me oversea, so I can let my eyes see more thing and learn more thing, more independence.....

Valentine Day

Today or Now is the Valentine's Day already, many couples in this world are now doing the same thing, that is be together with their belover, but for me....I stay at home, writing this blog lor, just same like some single people will do during valentine day....

Actually, I never date with a girl before, I am now already 19 years old, but still cant get a girl friend, dunno why? Sometimes, when I saw my roomate together with his gf, I got a feeling that being a couple feel nice and wonderful, but sometimes, I feel alone is better...therefore, I conclude 1 thing is when u r single and available, God is accompany u, when u r couple, God will guide u until u 2 get marriage if the girl is chosen by God....So this mean that whatever u r, God will always be with you....This year Valentine Day you are with ur belover, but next year perhaps you 2 are not together already, but only God will always be with you, so pass ur Valentine Day with God is better....Haha....Joking....(Sorry God)

Now I just finish my "Posperity Foldover" from McDonald and feel full now so cant sleep yet....From 7/2/2008 until 21/2.2008, is Chinese New Year, so now still can say is CNY, so the posperity foldover is still sold at McDonald...It quite tasty but the foldover bread is suxx....haha....so I recommend that jz eat the meat inside the foldover, while the bread, as you like lor, either you want to eat it or throw it....haha....But it is spicy lor, bcoz of black pepper ler....haha....

Many people will ask,"How is your Valentine Day?", "Got girl friend or boy friend pass your Valentine Day with you?" and etc...For me, useless la....I dun hv any feeling toward Valentine Day, it's just a normal and I have to go to college, continue eating, studying and bla bla bla.....Perhaps this is because I dont have girl friend, but I think eventhough I have girl friend, I will make it everyday is Valentine Day or just pass the day normally....Wanna give chocolate, go Langkawi buy la, taste good and cheaper, wanna give flower to your belover, u can give everyday if you wanted, no need give at Valentine Day Onli...Whatever la, I think you are thinking that I am frustrated about I m still single until I jealous about Valentine Day, but I can tell u that I am not jealous about that, jz I will feel wanna hv a girl friend is better, Tats all....

Whatever la, for me, either single or couple, if you really enjoy your life, that is enough...If you feel happy, the world will be beautiful....so enjoy your life n let God to choose your belover (for single) and hope God bless the couples....Goodnite....