回顾过去~~~

这是我第一次用华语来写我的部落格，所以，如果你们觉得我的用词有问题，请谅解，因为我很久很久美在写作文了。其实，在华人新年的时候，我已经向用华语来写的，可是，可能是习惯了吧，不知不觉地用英文...

所谓：“一寸光阴一寸金、寸金难买寸光阴”，虽然每个人都知道这个道理，不管是华人、红毛人、或是马来人，但人总是想买回时间...最近，因为天气的关系，我多数的时间都在房间，懒得出去...所以我有很多时间在想有的没的，想回去以前的事情，不是甜蜜的回忆，也不是不好的回忆，而是“令人后悔”的回忆...想起那时的情景、人物，到现在我还是后悔着...你们是否有像我这样的回忆呢？

现在的我不能说我不会再犯同样的错，只能肯定地说，我以后会三思而后行...我曾经因为一个“不小心”造成一个从小学到中学的同班同学，和我翻面了几年，虽然他现在已经原谅了我，并作我很好很好的朋友，但是回想起来，我满后悔的...真想回去当时，就不要犯如此的错...

此外，我也因我主观的性格，令我的一位同灵对我有了很深的代沟，直到现在，我还是感觉得到那个代沟...所以我唯一能做的就是尽我所能地去坭补这个代沟...如果我没有强逼他，或多管闲事，可能这代沟就不会存在...

在小学和中学的时候，我是一个自卑又小气的人，因为我胖，同学嘲笑我，我就会很生气地跟他们吵架...直到我离乡背井到外读书，我才开始大大地改变，但是主观的性格就不知不觉地出现了...过后，有一天，我遇到了我的一个小学同学，我的朋友就问他还记得我吗，他的回答竟然是：

我的朋友：记得友义吗？

他 ：当然记得啊！！

我 ：（笑着望着她）

他 ：我还记得我曾经跟他吵过架...

我 ：（回想过去...）有吗？怎么我不记得的呢？

他 ：有....

我的朋友：啊呀，谁没跟过友义吵过架...我们全部都跟过他吵架过啦。

我 ：（心想：也对，真像以前的我，哈哈！！）

短短的对话领导我想回以前的我是如此的小气，如此暴躁，但是也好，因为我是如此的，才会令到曾经和我吵架过的朋友记得我...哈哈哈！！！

好了，就写到这里，虽然我有很多想要改变的事情，但是我不会永远活在回忆当中，因人是要往前走的，只是偶尔回想以前所做的傻事，后悔一番，让我记得我所犯过的错...

PS: 后天是元宵节了，祝大家元宵节快乐，也代表着华人新年的结束...

memory - Sally Fletcher - harp

First time celebrate CNY in England~~~

Hmm...Today is the 4th day of CNY and many of my friends kept on asking me how I celebrated my CNY in England...Ermm, my answers were quite different depend on my mood when I answered their questions...So, I decided to write down what I had done during this CNY...

Actually I started celebrated CNY on 23rd January, means last friday, my cousemate and his housemate who three of us were Nilai students, went to a dinner which was organised by Birmingham Malaysian Society and all the members there I dont even know them (honestly I dont even know there is such kind of society)...I joined the dinner because my cousemate invited me to go and since it was a CNY celebration, so I just joined lor...During the dinner, there was lucky draw, and some performance such as lion dance, er-wu presented by a girl with a harmonica presenter who is suck and violine...For lion dance, ermm...quite okay for me, but still not very pro la...for the er-wu, I like it and the presenter was good in it...Bravo...and the harmonica, forgot about it, the man who played it suck and somemore, he asked us to stand up because he wanted to play "NEGARAKU", what the...while for the violine performance, the presenter was good, but the song he chose was "Butterflies lover" means 梁山伯与祝英台...sweat ler....The feeling of Chinese New Year was gone like that...

The next celebration was on CNY's Eve, as same as Friday, my friends and I went to a Chinese restaurant to have our dinner (buffet)...At there, there was lion dance performance, but this time, there was 2 lions dancing around the restaurant...Cool man...The food very tasty also...haha...I had also met some other Malaysian students but they seem like they dont want to meet new guys...haha...After the dinner, they decided to go to sing K...At first, I dont want to go because I had spent a lot of pounds in these celebration, but my friends kept on telling me that once in a year what...So, I had to join them...but this day celebration I felt quite happy, compare to Friday....haha...

For the first day of CNY, I was so pity because I had to go to class and until today...Today I really missed Malaysia, for sure not only today, but from the first day until now, I miss Malaysia...At here, I cant feel the CNY coming or had come, because in Malaysia, during this period, I can feel the spring wind blowing my face with hot and dry air...Missing the day before CNY, I helped to clean my house...the reunion dinner with my family...the thanksgiving service at my local church...true friends who had be known for years...and cousins, gambling, the noise of CNY...all the things that make me wanted to go home...However, God always accompany me so I have to be strong enough...Haha...

PS: May God bless my friends and me and lead me Thy way...

Malaysia Singer - Ah Bin (方炯斌) ~~~

I really like this song which is currently playing while you reading my blog...not only the rhythm is nice but the lyric is meaningful either...First time I saw him was the first time I watched a Taiwan Chinese Singing Competition which called "Super Idol"...He attended the show to PK the contestants so that he can promote or sing his song for 1 minute if he won the contestant...When he sang the first phrase of the song, I mean the song he used to PK, I was surprised and I really like his vocal very much, and then I kept searching about his profile and guess what, I found out he is Malaysian who was one of a member of "年少"...This group was or maybe is famous among Malaysia, it reminded me that when I was young, I like this team or band but I cant remember what their songs that I like...haha...paiseh....

Beside that, I also found out that the famous song of his new album was recorded in the end of a drama "牵牛花开的时候", a song called "坏人"...Wow, it is really good drama and with this song, it was perfectly matched...

In the show, I also found out that nowadays, many Malaysian went to Taiwan to start their journey in Chinese Entertainment field and some of them are very talent in composing music such as Gary, Penny and now Ah Bin because in his new album, almost all the songs are composed by himself...Surprisingly, I just found out in the show I had mentioned, there were 2 Malaysia contestants had compete until top 5...Furthermore, I had also watched another singing competition "超级星光大道" and got one Malaysian went there PK as well, and the judges praised his techniques in singing...I am quite proud of them~~~hehe...

Anyway, I just show some support to them but I wont admire them like their fans...Honestly speaking, for listening songs, for me, I will care about the rhythms first, and then the vocal of the singers, and lyrics as well...I dont care how gorgeous are the singers, if their vocals and rhythms suck, I wont like it...haha...seem like I am so critic...

A Week before CNY~~~

Yoik...Another new year for Chinese is coming up just after a week, but this year I dont really got heart to celebrate because of my family is not around me and I cant celebrate with them...This is the first year dont celebrate my CNY with my cousin and family...Therefore, sure got a bit of upset, as in Chinese phrases, there is one phrase called "独在异乡为异客，每逢佳节倍思亲"...

Every year at this time, I mean one week before CNY, my parents will busy preparing or buying things to celebrate CNY such as Mandarin oranges, ingredients for CNY's Eve (during this period, all the ingredients will increase the price especially sea-food), and some others decorations...Haiz...miss the smell of the Mandarin Oranges which filled all my house...Missing the time all of my cousins sat together and chatting while gambling...And the most thing to miss is "angpao" (red paper pocket)....haha...

At UK, the BBC here dont exactly celebrate this event, but they do know the traditional of CNY, which is all the family members should gather together and have dinner together...Ya, Chinese like to be "团圆" no matter how far the children they live, at this event, most of the children will try their best to come back to their parents house and celebrate this happy and meaningful event together...Haiz, this year, two of my family members are not at Malaysia and cannot celebrate this event with my parents, that are me and my elder brother who are now at Australia...

Actually, I am planning to have a dinner with the Malaysian Chinese around my area, but dont know they want it or not, just hoping they will like to have steambot if there are many of us...

PS: Sorry, Pa and Ma, I cant celebrate with you two since I dont have holiday during CNY, wish you two have healthy body lor....So do my brothers~~~~

Little Nyonya~~~

I just finished watching a Singapore drama called "The Little Nyonya" and I am now missing my hometown and my country...haha...because in the drama, it showed the Baba Nyonya food that make me want to go back and try it...So miss the food there and really long time dint eat that kind of food...

In this drama, it said about the culture of Baba Nyonya or "Peranakan" (also means descendants) and the life of Peranakan family in the past...I was so happy to see this drama because it can promote the culture of Peranakan to everyone who saw this drama...Eventhough I am Malaysian, I dont know much about their culture, but I just know that they are Chinese who adopted the Malay customs and combine these two customs together as "Peranakan" culture...The language of the Peranakans, Baba Malay (Bahasa Melayu Baba), is a dialect of the Malay language (Bahasa Melayu), which contains many Hokkein words...Baba refer to men ofPeranakan while Nyonya refer to young women, and for elder women, is Bibi...
Actually before this drama, I saw a television show which was also showed about the culture of Peranakan, but it is a comedy. The "actresses" in the show are Baba, but they acted as Nyonya...The funny of this comedy was the way the actors talking, because I was first time knew about Peranakan, so in their conversation, they use many Hokkein words...Haha....Miss that show...My mother told me about the culture of Peranakan when I was in primary school since she had a Nyonya neighbour last time...She told me that the Nyonya was a "Ma-Jie" who is maid that dont want to marry for whole life...

If you want to know more about Peranakan, you can search with Google or other materials...

PS: Miss Malaysia...haha....

Random~~~

Hmm...its been 2 weeks I dint write my blog already, so now I got mood to write my feeling recently...

These few days, many things happened actually...Firstly is my promise to God was totally broken...I was so selfish to myself and let myself to be the one who He dislike...Haiz...however, I believe that one day, I will be the one He like...

Secondly is, last two days, I read my Taiwanese blog, in his blog, he wrote the differences between Eastern culture and Westhern culture...He mentioned that his housemates washed their plate without using any cleaning liquid, but just water, even though the plates were very oily or dirty...Amazing rite...He did mentioned about the different country people have different pronouncation or use-words in Mandarin...He was interested in people use-words because he is studying English, and PHD some more, means that he like to do research about languages...haha...I felt so funny about that....

Thirdly, this morning, my Malaysian friend told me that my Malay got a little bit "pelik" and he felt that I dint speak Malay frequently...Its true, when I was in Malaysia, I really really "jarang" speak Malay because of almost all of my friends are Chinese, so we either use Mandarin to chat or Hokkein, thats all...Actually, sometimes, I felt that my Hokkein also got a bit retrogress, because this afternoon, when I talked Hokkein with my friends, I felt "pelik" again...haha...Maybe I spoke less, make me felt weird...

PS: I cant upload pictures...Paiseh

Happy New Year 2009~~~

Yoik, its now 2009, although it is 2nd of January, its 2009...New year, new hope, it is the time to start my resolutions:

• my attitude, my temper and my patience
• the time serve God
• starting to eat "Spiritual Food"
  

Ya, these are my resolutions to start, pray that God will guide me... Just now I read an email
from my friend, an e-mail that I felt so touching and remind me a movie called "Money is Not Enough 2" (钱不够用2). Let you all see what is the email like:

When you are very small~~~~

They had spent a lot of time to teach you how to use spoons and chopsticks to eat food....

...teach you how to wear clothes, tight your shoes and button up your clothes...

...teach you how to wash your face and how to comb your hair...

...teach you the way to be a good man...

Therefore, when they get older and older...

...when they can't remember or catch up the conversation...

...please don't blame them...

...when they start to forget to button up their clothes...

...forget to tight up their shoes...

...WHEN they start to smudge their clothes while they are eating...

...WHEN they start shivering their hands while they are combing their hairs...

...PLEASE don't hasten them...

...because...

...you are growing bigger, while they are growing older...

...IF and only IF you are in front of their eyes...

...Their heart will be always warmed...

...IF one day, they can't stand stable and walk...

...PLEASE hold tight their hands and walk slowly with them...

...JUST LIKE...

...just like the time they are holding your hand...

After reading this, I was thinking that how great our parents are...Thank God, for giving me a healthy family...So, in this new year, I hope that my parents can be healthy and stronger...