A Vangrant Life...

Recently, I am like a vagrant, staying at different friends house, here stay a few days, there stay a few days, like a homeless people...Why I can be like that? Because of the UK VISA that I need to apply to go UK studying...It's very troublesome and need a lot of statement and provement just to get the VISA...Haiz, I just a student like I said previous blog...I thought that I had finished preparing all the statement required but, now, I haven't get any reply from the accommodation at BCU....Without it, I cant apply for VISA...My argents cant help me, the University also havent reply me...I need to wait until when wor? After the orientation? They dont know that I am very paiseh to disturb my friends already la...I am very very "fan" ler....No place to stay, no place to go....2molo I thought I can go to Sg.Wang shopping and sing K so that I can forget all my worries, but, my friends change the place, go cyberjaya...very fan....very fan now....I am thinking to give up, but...My family put a lot of hope at me...How can I give up like this? But I am worrying that I cant stand this pressure already....Help me!!!!

No Mood~~~

Long time din write blog already because I dont have internet connection at my hometown...TOday, I am very very pek cek(frustrated)...This afternoon, I just know that everything that I had done is useless...work for nothing...Everything I had done is equal to zero....My father doesnt understand me and dont want listen to my explanation...I am so so....no mood and frustrated....Better dont go....How come so messy de the thing? Why? I am just a student....why you all want to make me felt difficulties...This is a task, that is what can I think now....But still....feel so pek cek.........

2 Years Adi...The End of Nilai Life

Recently, my friends who had read my blog told me that,"Your blog is boring la, please add some pictures." So I try to find out some pictures that I can add in. During the process, I found out a lot of pictures that my friends and I took in this 2 years here. In these 2 years, I know some funny coursemates and friends...

Funny Fariz is the person who make me can't forget him becasue he is very nice and happy-go-lucky eventhough people make fun with him..Sometimes, I am so pity of him because people always make fun with him, but since he like this way to make friends, I have not idea with it...This is the most "YENG" hairstyle among us

Mohd. Fariz

For me, I had learned many thing in these 2 years, learn how to drink alcohol, how to increase my EQ, and blar bla bla.....

I got alot of pictures, but its 2 many adi....so next time onli I add more...

PS: Please leave comment for me cause I want to know whether I put the pictures nicely onot, Thank

Decision

Last post I wrote is confusion, I had confused about whether want to go Australia or UK or stay in Malaysia. Now it is the time I had made my decision. My decision is going to Birmingham City University. However, I am not yet sure that whether I can go or not since I havent finish my diploma yet I havent get my VISA. It's very complicated to get VISA to UK, so please pray for me.

Actually after a week I wrote the previous post, my father suddenly called me and asked me about applying for studying in UK, then without a doubt, I replied him I already applied and just wait for their reply only. After that, I only realised that I am still thinking of want to go or not, but now, I told my father that I want to go already, so this decision I made without a proper thinking. Perhaps because my parents want me go studying at UK just after I told them last time when I went back home. So, now no regret, just hope everything will fine there lor....hhe....

Confusion

Actually this blog I cannot write it first since my UK university offer letter hven come yet but I write this blog now because I wanna keep the feeling which I will face when I wanna to decide to go UK or stay at Malaysia.

Just now, I chatted with my friend and he told me that what will we do before I leave Nilai, go sing K, yamcha and etc. These things make me want to stay in Malaysia because there is a lot of things that make my heart to stay, a lot of memories and etc, which confuse my decision to go oversea. Haiz...If I stay, I can stay more longer with them and attending the church activities with my dear churchmates. Although in UK, I can also join their activities but in different situation and environment. A totally brand new life there, no bus can go bck home, just flight that can bring me home but cant go bck every semester break. This will confuse me to make decision.

I dont mean that I scare brand new life, but I just scare I cant suit the environment there, cold and the education is high level which I scare I cant follow up the syllabus. A lot of things that I have to consider before going there. Because of UK can give me good education, I choose to go there but......Haiz.....Only God will guide me.....Pray hard lor....

What do I really need? A good education or good friendship? Stay here, I can stay longer with my dear friends, go oversea, I can get good education...What to choose? Remember last time when I came to Nilai, I got this kind of feeling too, feeling desparate, lonely, but fortunately I got my brother's friend here so he intro his frens to me so that I wont be lonely here. Therefore, I think that God arrange all of it, so God will also arrange a better way for me to go...

Leadership Training Camp

Last weekend, I had attended a camp called leadership training camp as a counsellor at PJ church. This is my 1st time be a counsellor for my church so I was very tired after the camp. The theme for this camp is to train our junior youth of our church to be a good leader so that after they grow up, they can lead our church. This camp is just 3 days and 2 night camp, there is 43 students and 20 counsellor. You're not read wrongly, but is really 20 counsellors from 5 churches. Its too many counsellors there, is more than the counsellor for theolo.

During the camp, actually I learn a lot of things, such as being a counsellor is not very easy, you had to wake up earlier than the participants and help to prepare the food for them and etc. In this camp, I had also joined the activities that the organizer arranged to the participants and to guild them to have fun in these activities. They're junior so they are so active until I have no energy after joining them but they still have the energy to play around. In this camp, I had also learned that before doing somethings, I have to do preparation. I was asked to arrange the transportation to the tressure hunt for the participants but because of my mistake in communication, I had made a driver come to church in early morning without nothing. Haiz...I really very sorry about that.

During the camp, I learned some activities that really very meaningful for teenagers today, and also me. The objective for these activities are to train the participants to be patience, responsible, reliable, confidence and etc. For example, there is a tressure hunt for this camp, in this tressure, you can see how the patience of the participants and the co-operation of them. While the leaders, in this game, you may see their responsible and reliable for their teamates. At this time, I was very tired because I had been long time I dint exercise but had to walk around the park to find the clues for the game. Now my leg is muscle-paining....haiz....But its quite fun la....hehe....

However, I had hear my friend who is one of the counsellors and had experient doing counsellor told me that, this camp is the worst camp that he never joined because the objective for this camp is wrong already and the arrangement is also wrong. What is the real abojective for this camp? Is it to train to youth be a good leader in real world or in church? If it is in church, then the organizer should arrange more prayer session for the participants to pray for Holy Spirit, because the main requirement for being a leader in church is Holy Spirit, so the objective is wrong. While the counsellors are too many already until some counsellors joined this camp is just for fun and play or tackle girls only. Thinking of play, I think he was talking about me cause in this camp, I was playing around and not doing the work that a counsellor should do...I think....haha....

Overall, I think this camp is quite good but it still need improvement since it is the first time organised this camp. Such as rules and main objective should be clear. I shouldn't complain this camp since I was a newbie for being counsellor, but after listening to my friend, I realised that a counsellor is not that easy.

从来没有用华语来写部落格，今天就用华语来告诉你们我如今的心声吧。。。最近，四川的大地震、缅甸的大暴风、加上中国之前的雪灾和西藏的暴乱，令到世界的和平亮了红灯，难道这就是世界末日的征兆吗？以前，我们马来西亚的人民说：“马来西亚是一个和平、平安的国家，不会有天灾、地灾或人祸等等。”但是，无可否认，在前几年的年尾，马来西亚沿海地带都被海啸而侵列，虽然我国的死亡人数不比其他国家，如：苏门答腊、巴里岛...但这海啸是我国有史以来就大的天灾，也是我国人民认为不可能发生的天灾。所以，我们现在活在一个不平安的世界里，因此，我们应该互相帮助，捐出我们的爱心来帮助那些灾民吧，正如如果灾难发生在我们的身上时，我相信他们也会帮我们的。

前两个星期，我班上的一位来自缅甸的同学，在我们正在上课的时候，拿着一个箱子来到我们的班上向我们要捐款，因为那时缅甸遇到大风灾，没想到只过了一个星期，四川省的人民受到7.8级地震的折磨，直到现在，那些灾民还在折磨当中，令人担心不已。所谓：“患难见真情”，在这个灾难中，我们可以看到母爱的伟大，报章有报道说有位妈妈为了让她的孩子活下去，到死了还在哺乳她的婴孩。我看了这报章，我真的感动不已。也有一位老师，为了保护他的学生，用自己的身体来阻挡倒塌的建筑物压到学生，这也让我感动。所以啊，既然有人为了救人而牺牲了自己的生命，也在所不辞，那么为何我们不能捐出我们的少许来帮助他们那些还活着的呢。。。

听到报导说现在活着的难民也正在受苦中，因为那里没水、没食物可喝、可食，所以为了生存，有些甚至喝尿和吃餐巾纸维生，如果换是我，我也会这样做。现在，我们能做的，就是为他们祷告和捐款，或是捐出你们的爱心和力量，到灾区帮助这些无助的人民。在教会，执事倒在鼓励我们信徒捐款给那些难民，也鼓励我们要为他们祷告，求神帮助他们，所以就让我们捐出我们的爱心吧。。。