Dream~~

Last few days, I saw a church member posting a status comment on his Facebook, saying that a man without dream, is living in vain...Is he correct? No dream, no life...Actually, he got his explanation, but actually, there are many people are having no dream life...including me...What is my dream? I dont know...Will my life goes on? Yes...However, I felt pity to myself sometimes, because if I got no dream, then what is my destination? What is my target? Engineer? No, actually I dont like engineering...I dont like mechanic things, but why I studying Mechanical? Because I still not yet regret...

For a Christian, my dream is to God...To heaven, and eternal life after death...We, human, are very weak, most of us wont give ourselves to God "completely"...I remember there is a song in my Hymn book, saying that,"I prefer myself only, I prefer myself than God, I prefer less to myself than God, I prefer God than myself"...Which one is refer to you? For me, I am refer to the third one, prefer less to myself than God...However, the less part to myself, is still not enough to God...After coming back from UK, I felt that I had learned lot of thing, my thinking is like more mature than past time...Maybe this is God's will...

Anyway, I hope that one day, I can put my dream to God, and love God completely...Not now, because I am not yet prepare...If God is willing...

PS: There is a blog writing about our True Jesus Church and our doctrine, please feel free to read the blog, the website is on my bloglist there, named,"Salt and Light of the World"...

Strict Father~~~

I have a strict father at home, who I cant really communicate well with him...I think most of the families are same as mine, strict father that always scold us instead of praising us...Eventhough we are doing something correctly but they think we are wrong, we will get scolded...As a son or daughter, we are really speechless to them...We cant disobey their teaching, we just have to obey...Sometimes, they scold us not to do this, not to do that, but they themselves are doing the same things as they tell us not to...Like this, can we scold them back? No, for the strict father, but for a warm father, it will be okay...Haha...

However, I still grad that I have a strict father at home, because at least, he is responsible and still think that we are like kids, treating us like kids that need lots of care...Sometimes, I really feel that I am a grown up teenage, but why he still treat me like I do not anything in life or be independent...For example, my mother felt that we can go outside buy food for ourselves, so she wont cook for the day, but for my father, he will tell my mother to buy us food instead of asking us go outside buy food ourselves...At this situation, what can we do as a son or daughter? Both of them are your parent...As an idiom say,"The front and back of hand are meat (direct translated...XDXD)"...At last, I automatically go outside and buy food for myself...haha...

Anyway, my family is my family...I respect my parent and will do everything that I suppose to do as a son in Christ...

What I am Thinking Now~~~

After listening to the video, which post by a UK church member at Facebook, I started to think that, how come I dint join the choir and get closer to the UK church members? I had been in UK for 9 months, but still I was not close to them...Maybe because I am not live near to our church which is at Leicester...Maybe, I am lazy to go to church twice a week...Lot of things are inside my mind...Let's say I joined the choir, for sure, I will close to the members there, right? Anyway, it is past...

Just now, I attended the church youth service. During the service, preacher asked us about what things that made us or block us to know deeper and deeper about Jesus? In our life, what things that is more important than Jesus? Some said, study as I agree too, but after that, I was thinking, the thing that block us more, is ourselves...We think that ourselves are more important than Jesus, so we wont sacrify everything to God especially ourselves...Because of our laziness, our weakness and so and so, blocking us to sacrify ourselves to God...this is true...

I am now missing the time I was in Nilai, church members in Kajang were very enthusiastic and warm, I missed them the most....Anyway, I will meet them somedays....hehe...

Demonology~~

As I had promised in previous post, saying that I will write out this title, which I heard during Tertiary Camp in Port Dickson. This is the thing I learned about:

Before I started this topic, we need to know what is the demon's name according to bible? From (Ezekiel 28:13), here say that an angel, whose name Tyre, adorned with every precious stine, ruby, topaz and emerald and etc...(Isaiah 14:12-13), here tell us the reason why the fallen angel or how the fallen angel falled, because the angel wanted ascend to heaven, and raise his throne above the God...From these two versus, we hardly to say that the fallen angel is demon, but we can know that the angel falled because of pride and proud...However, we will ask why the angel had done one thing wrong, which proud, had been punished by God, but we, human being, had done lot of sinful thing, but still God forgive us? The answer is when God creates angel, angel is the model of perfection (Ezekiel 28:12)...

In the bible, what is the demon's other names?

• Satan (very familiar to Christian so I didnt add bible versus here...)
• Devil
• The evil one (John 17:15)
• The ancient snake (refer to the incident happen to Eve in Genesis)

The characteric of Demon:

• Murderer, not follow to the truth, lier (John 8:44)
• roaring like a lion, finding for someone to devour, which mean to fall people (1 Peter 5:8)
• False prophet, which mean preaching false teaching (Rev 16:13)
• Preventing someone to believe in God or preach gospel to people. Jesus scolded Peter, saying that Peter is Satan, the word "Satan" means Preventing (Matthew 16:22-23)
• Perverting the truth of God (Act 13:10)

These are all the thing I learned, the most important is we have to be careful, alert and self-control, and need to recognise the truth so that we wont fall into the trap of Demon...

PS: Trying to put a picture of Demon, but seem like its not appropriate to put such thing in my blog...haha...

My Result was Released~~~

Yesterday, about 3am in the morning, I saw one of my senior posted a comment, saying that he had passed all his subjects and get 1st class of average mark...Without hesitate, I went to my university website to search for my results...Before I opened the results, I calmed down myself and prayed to God...And the results are:

• Engineering Design (64%) - Pass
• Market Led Business For Engineers D2 (66%) - Pass
• Mechanics Of Materials D2 (77%) - Pass
• Numerical Analysis D2 (77%) - Pass
• Power Devices & Environmental Studies D2 (55%) - Pass *Not sure it pass or failed*

These are the results I get, and average is 67 so hopefully I can pass my 2nd year...Power Devices was damn hard you know, its about thermodynamic, which mean theories, memorising, bla bla...Anyway, thanks God for giving me this results, I will accept everything that you give me including failed...Hopefully, 55% is enough for me to pass that subject...Quite worried...

PS: Dog dog, dont be so upset about your results, I believe you can do it better next time...

June 2009 in Malaysia~~

Its been a month I dint update my blog...the reason is I am lazy and somemore, I had nothing to write because my life in this month, June, was just the same...I worked as a part time driver of my younger brother and sometimes, mother...My salary will be my food supplied at home...Every weekdays afternoon, I have to go to my younger brother's school to fetch him back home...Somemore, I have to fetch him to his tuition classes...Thats my job during this month and I think I will continue this job until I go back to UK...

During this month, I had eaten lots of food that I had missed for a year (actually is 9 months), such as durian, mangoesteen, Indian fried noodles, Hokkein noodle and etc...Furthermore, I had "dim sum" as my breakfast for several times with my friends...haha...I did have "bah kut teh" at my house which was cooked by my mother...Taste really nice especially with the mixed chilli and garlic...

Last 2 week, I attended Tertiary Camp at Port Dickson for 3 days 2 nights...Actually the camp was just 2 days 1 night but since I am from Kedah, so I need to go there 1 day earlier...During the camp, the programs were totally packed, and no time for us to go to beach or chit chat at there...However, I felt very happy there because I met up lot of old friends, and I can stay at new hostel at Port Dickson, which was just built this year...Haha...The hostels are totally awesome, there are many rooms and the rooms are bigger than the other churches, many bathrooms with heater, balconies for each room and toilet, and kitchen there too...It is the best place for organising theological training course or other big event of the church...Beside that, the hostel is 3 stories building, first floor is preachers' rooms, second floor is brothers' rooms, and third is sisters...During the camp, the section I like the most was Demonology, which was talking about Demon...It was very interesting topic...I will write it at my blog the other day...Haha...

Last week, I had a gathering with my primary schoolmates at Penang...Because of this event, I had many contact numbers that I had a long long time or never talked to its owners...We had invited as many as we can contact to, but most of them refused to join us...I was very sad about this because the event is organised so that we can connect to those we had lost contact for many years...Anyway, I cant force them to join, but that day, we had a great time...I met a friend that we dint meet up since primary school...Her name is Yih Ni...Hope to have this gathering one more time, just we dont know when is the time...


Front: Li Ying, Yih Ni, Me

PS: I have a dog called Lucky, named by my mother...

It's 6.41am in the morning (Malaysia time)~~

What am I doing at this time? Suppose I am dreaming about somethings, but I am now blogging at here...Seem like I have some problems about myself recently...

Time goes really fast, I had back to Malaysia about 1 week time and within this week, I had kinda weird feeling that I felt UK is better than Malaysia...Why I felt this way? Maybe is the weather, but isnt Malaysia weather same every year and time? Suppose I will use to it since I live at this country for 20 years time...How come? When I was in UK, I really miss Malaysia, not so much, and I kept telling people I will go back to Malaysia after I gain experience in UK, but now, I'm kinda regret to make this decision...I want to stay and work at UK for long long time, if I can get a job there...Sound like I really dont like Malaysia...

Actually, I have my reasons to say that, because I really very disappointed to our government who is so berat sebelah...Secondly, is the weather, but this reason is not very supportive because I had used to stay at UK where is cold weather, so it really need sometimes to get rid of this problem...Somemore, fat guy dont like hot weather compare to cold weather...This is my experience...

Recently, I met up with my old friends, and asking me about the things happened in UK, and I replied them whatever I know and really happened...Besides that, they also found out that my pronounciation of my Hokkein (mother tongue) is very weird and I speak Mandarin slower than last time they meet me...Seem like I had changed after going to UK...Anyway, its not a serious problem or changes...

Recent posts, I will not upload pictures because I am not used to bring camera when I am in Malaysia so not new pictures recently...Haha...

PS: I will go to Port Dickson this end of month for tertiary training camp...Hope to see my old friends there...haha...